I am on seaside with my family.Only my mom saw my cuts on legs and arms but she didnt tell father,i told her not to.Because i promised her that i stopped self harm.And i did stop but the will is still here.I ignore it.I have bf ,and fisrt time in life i think love does exist.I love him,he loves me,our love is strong,he keeps me alive,he is giving me reason to live .He kisses scars on my skin,he try really hard to help me.
But today i snapped.I just broke.I run to the sea ,jump in in,and tried to drown myself .Nobody was watching,i could do it easily.I had some kind of attack.I was crying,shivering,i couldnt breath.I went deeper and deeper all i saw was my death and i was wishing for it but my mom came and called me to the coast and then it got even more worse she asked what happened i said nothing but she was persistent.Instead od giving me a hug or anything,she starter screaming and shouting on me,like,why are you doing this to me ,why ,i will die like this ,stop it…SHE DOES NOT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT MY CONDITION.
however,i found some pills,so im taking them,i think they will only give me deep sleep,so,if i survive,ill read your coments,if not,STAY STRONG AND I LOVE YOU ALL.
Love to all.Tijana. And sorry for grammar and spelling mistakes,i wrote it in hurry
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Really? I don’t think the pills will work to be honest so when your done, tell us what happened. And if it did work… Oops! =O
@realtalk – is this some kind of joke to you? this is someone’s life.
if you come back you can talk to me.
me too.
me three
im stil alive,im at hospital,my dad wont talk to me ,and wwhen i woke up at hospital first day,my mum slapped me
There are people out here who care about you. I know don’t know you personally but I care. When I read your post before I wished somehow I could get there, to you, i mean to just let you know someone cared.
And I hope you write on here anytime. For me it helps me feel less alone.
(I think what your parents did at the hospital is fucked up because you are in pain and you are hurting and you need comfort, you need love.)
Please write on here if it helps. <333