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Deep Sleep

misery=life

by my heaven is your hell 7/4/2013

I am on seaside with my family.Only my mom saw my cuts on legs and arms but she didnt tell father,i told her not to.Because i promised her that i stopped self harm.And i did stop but the will is still here.I ignore it.I have bf ,and fisrt time in life i think love does exist.I love him,he loves me,our love is strong,he keeps me alive,he is giving me reason to live .He kisses scars on my skin,he try really hard to help me.

But today i snapped.I just broke.I run to the sea ,jump in in,and tried to drown myself .Nobody was watching,i could do […]

7/4/2013 7 comments

heartbreak

by claramel 3/8/2013

written by claramel

Hi, I dont know who to talk to or who to open up to because my pain is my pain. And no one can ease that pain. I sit here and I think that the people that said they love me or care for me but where are they now. It’s true, I’m going to be alone and no one to cry to or tell me we are going to get through this together. W hy have these men come into my life and took that one thing I CHERISHED. Therevare times whereby I just want to find that one blade that will end my […]

3/8/2013 3 comments

Happiness is figuring out a good way to go. I finally did! :)

by sick_of_it 10/16/2012

written by sick_of_it

*** ** MAJOR amendment to this thread!!! VERY IMPORTANT! Scroll down to my last post. It will save you A LOT of trouble! Seriously!!!! *******

I’ve figured it out! I feel like celebrating! I’m so happy and relieved!
In my heart of hearts, I believe people should be allowed the dignity and respect of deciding how long they live. To me, what drives a person to end their life is the devestating part; that profound suffering and internal unending pain. But not the actual suicide; that’s freedom.

For example, I recently had to have […]

10/16/2012 27 comments

Forever Trapped

by newsflash 9/20/2012

written by newsflash

Normally when I have aÂ flashback or nightmareÂ I write about it in my journal. Today I decided to post about it on here just so that I don’t have to keep this mess hidden inside me. This is hard for me to write about so I’m sorry if it doesn’t make too much sense.

I don’t usually have good sleeps, some nights I don’t sleep at all. I’m terrified of the dark in fear of my abusers getting me. Last night I dozed off, I didn’t fall asleep, just went into a trance to try to calm myself. Around 10am this morning I was triggered when I […]

9/20/2012 4 comments

still alive,

by noexception 4/28/2012

written by noexception

woke up pissed off,well i guess im just gonna have to drink more this time,i drink it last time and i started feeling sick as hell and started getting drifty,mabey i felt so sick because i have been starving my self,if i eat i eat fruit only, i weigh 100 pounds and my doctor says im under weight, but i dont see that wen i look in the mirrior,so i only got fruit in my fridge,monday im gonna buy diet pills to, im gonna damage my body because i hate it.i guess i dont really want to die yet, i am to scared, but if […]

4/28/2012 6 comments

Without Sleep, Theyre Nightmares

by Rain 3/9/2012

written by Rain

Sleep…I remember those days when i was able to fall asleep..listening toÂ his breathing. Those days when Skye wouldÂ lay next to me and her body would keep me warm. Those same days when i had no choice but to drift into a deep sleep because hanging out with my friends…and him…would tire me out. Sleep…sly sleep..escapes me now. Leave me with nightmares still…fully awake. I see their faces. I hear their voices…i smell them..just like in the dreams that once brought me joy. Without sleep…without them…those memories become nightmares..and daymares..and thoughts of suicide..but it isnt suicide..its eternal sleep. As I type she lies beside me…but i […]

3/9/2012 0 comment

We’ll See

by imforgotten 5/12/2009

written by imforgotten

I don’t know how to live the “right” type of life. To me, living hurts. Dying is simple. To die, all you have to do is stop. To live, you have to do everything. Somebody told me that every breath you take is a choice. If that’s the case, I’m going to stop breathing. That’s my choice. To be or not to be? I choose to not. I’m tired of living. I have chosen how I want to go; I just need a place and a time. I’m waiting but we’ll see. I know that nobody should want to die, but I do. That’s what […]

5/12/2009 2 comments