Today was the first day of my senior year. It went okay better then what  i expected. I don’t have  many friends nor anyone  i can trust. So here i go to another pointless year. About a year ago my ex boyfriend left the school because i broke up with him because he had cheated on me. I mean it was the right thing to do ? He got all depressed and tried to commit suicide. He got badly injured and ended up getting  hospitalized for about three weeks.  By that time everyone had known at school and i  got blamed for it. i got over it and ignored it but everyday i came home crying cutting myself because i thought and still till this day i blame myself for it. Im with him now its hell i don’t know what the hell Im doing. He treats me like crap even tried to choke me from time to time. I cant have no friends what so ever. I cant have an instagram, twitter, facebook and he has to check my phone to make sure im not doing anything behind his back. I tried leaving him but he always goes back to the same thing where he says ” ill kill myself”. He has drowned me down with him i have no longer have my dreams and hopes. My parents dislike me because of him and don’t talk to me . So now im here alone with no one to guide me towards the right direction.