no hope

I am in my 50’s and have been through a divorce, lost my family, lost my home, declared bankruptcy, and lost my job.  All of this has happened in the last 2 years.  I am now living with my parents.  What a loser, huh?   I don’t want cto live anymore.  I feel I have really screwed up my life.  I think about suicide everyday.  I don’t see how I can ever be happy again.  It would be best for my friends and family if I weren’t here to burden them.  I just want to die!!  I am a guy who is used to being on top in everything I do, but severe depression is keeping me from achieving anything even close to that.  I feel like I am living a lie. I am ttrying to decide where I want to live.  I think about Florida, Minn, Colorado or Wyoming.  I feel like I am stuck, scared, and paralyzed.  I dont want to go on anymore.  Someone on this site must feel the same way.  Any thoughts or ideas would be appreciated.