Why shouldn’t I take all these pills? They stare at me with open arms and take my pain away. My weak soul is tempted beyond measure. I can’t break this habit, I’ve been trying for nearly 3 weeks, but my relapse seems to be nearing. But relapse to me is just repeating my old habit. I’ve tried to be strong but my mind is very weak, I rely on these tiny capsules.
I am holding them in my hand now, large and tiny, different brands of who know’s what. This is what I have become.
What Have you All Become? Please Comment.
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It is more admirable for a person to fight their pain, but it is also more enjoyable to be around a person who is not in pain. I’ve been told that it takes 21 days to make or break a habit. I’d suggest you ease off the pills and try to desensitize yourself..
Personally I am not a fan of medicine at all – I just don’t like the idea of it, but pills are so easy to take because they are so convenient so I guess it’s hard to argue not to take them if they solve you’re prob. But, I reckon if you had to measure out 20mLs, 3 times a day for a liquid form of whatever you’re taking, you wouldn’t be so reliant on it.. perhaps reluctant even.
I take four pills a day, normally. 1 for my ADHD, and 3 to get to sleep at night. If that says anything about me, it’s that I’m apparently a clock.
Could I ask, though, what are you relapsing into?
Overdosing on medicine
um, stomach pumps suck.. oh and being on suicide watch for the rest of your life. try an mmorpg to vent your frustrations on tonight, instead.
Overdosing rarely accomplishes any set goal, unless it’s to box your liver and make you feel awful. At least in my experience. I used to take these cough pills in handfuls when I was a teenager – there are some seriously absurd stories to tell about those experiences, but I felt a lot the same way when I’d take them. One day, I was sitting on my lawn after taking about twenty of them, and I had just vomited into the grass, and was looking down on it and for some reason, I thought, “Vomiting isn’t much fun…” After that point, I don’t think I’ve ever been able to take those cough pills without remembering that moment and getting nauseous, so I tend to avoid even thinking about taking them.
It’s hard enough living with emotional pain, why add to it?
its how I cope.
DEVO ?
96% of suicide attempts by drug overdose fail.
I don’t think he means to commit suicide by pills, he is probably trying to drug himself, a little bit like an alcoholic who wants to forget his problems. I could be wrong though. But if the intention is to overdose and die then I’m afraid I will have to disappoint you. The only pills that ever could kill someone were barbiturates (they were prescribed as a sleeping aid btw) and they haven’t been around in a long time. The pharmaceutical industry made sure that any kind of overdose results in vomiting, therefore eliminating death by overdose. As I have replied to many people before, the few you hear about probably choked on their own vomit as their body was unconscious.
I was recently in the same space but i asked for help and was taken to a respite house away from everyone even my husband for a complete rest it didnt help much i buggered off and got extreamly drunk they found me and returned me to the house only to let me go the next day because of funding
Btw 13 overdoses didnt work for me and believe me i took lots i dont recommend that route try talking to someone
Overdose is awful, getting your stomach pumped and vomiting charcoal afterwards (they use that sometimes to clean your stomach up) is one of the grossest things i’ve experienced… after that i can’t even see a box of the pills i took without feeling nauseous
yeah had the charcoal, disgusting!