Hi Guys,
It’s day 12! Woo!
So today was a snow day for my school. Which is great! So my friend and I went to a humongous library!!! It was amazing! I love books and libraries and it’s just gah! So that was awesome. I was feeling great. I was feeling happy for once. Then my sister had to go and ruin it. She threatened me again. *sigh*
Let’s start from the beginning. I woke up late today. (woo!) At around 10:30ish. I got up. Read a little. I did have breakfast/brunch. 😀 It was pancakes. Then I started talking to one of my friends and we made plans to go to the library. It was amazing!!! 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 I loved every bit of it!
So then I got home after being there for 3 hours and I just wanted to be alone. To just kind of write and just be alone with myself and my music. But nope! My sister is so desperate for attention and entertainment she bugs me. For the sole purpose of her entertainment. And I just wanted to be alone. Ya know? When all you want to do is be in peace. Just be somewhere alone. But no she couldn’t leave me alone. I asked her to and she replied with, “You’re talking to that kid aren’t you?” And I replied with, “No, I’m not!” And she replied with, “Prove it!” Now of course I couldn’t because I didn’t know how to and I had this open too. So I just got mad at her and told her to leave. *sigh*
So that’s great. *sigh*
Here’s your poem:
im broken
too broken
to be
glued back
together and
to be
fixed again.
im broken
too broken
to be
fixed and
be okay
for once
in my life.
im broken
too broken
to be
saved.
Au Demain
13 comments
Glad today was a somewhat good day. Your sister sounds alot like one of mine :/. Thanks for the wonderful poem!
LetItGo! Glad to hear the day was better then usual! Even with the attention needing sister. Do you and your sister ever have a play date, just the two of you?
Nope. She’s not like that. She hates me. Despises me.
Or is she jelous, and wants to spend time with you? Maybe she finds tormenting you a”strong”way of making you acknowledge her. I think you and her need a play date!
She’s not jealous. She doesn’t want to spend time with me. I’ve tried. I’ve tried to bond with her. Multiple times. It just ends badly. It ends with us fighting and yelling at each other and me always getting hit.
Awww……..I see you have tried. How much younger is she then you? What are things she really takes an interest in?
My plane is about to depart so I have to make this short, You challenges with your sister have a large bearing on your life. We need to find some way of you two to connect. Study her, find what she likes and her interests. Then start to ask her what “her opinion” is on questions that you”need help with”. I really think she wants to spend time with you, she just didn’t know how to yet. She could be scared of rejection from you too. I was like this with my older sister. We were both adopted from different families. She had 5 years on me. I look forward to your responses, when I get to where I am going. Goodnight LetItGo..
She’s older than me. She’s 2 years old. She’s in that stage of life where I’m “uncool” she takes interests in everything I hate doing. Our personalities crash.
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I was going to ask you that LetItGo!
Hey LetitGo, nice to see that today was a good day. Maybe you should plan more trips to the library.
As for you sister, I think OnlyLoveisReal, has some very good points. But on the other hand maybe question you sister why this toics bothers her. You may not see it and think she may hate you, but deep down your her little sister and she doesnt hate you.
You both are young, when you grow, the mutual understanding will grow as well. You both are in a time of finding oneself and many things seems uncertain and emotions may seem distant but give it time. But also consider she may be questioning you about the boys for the simple fact that she is protective. Yes, she seems cruel and mean but if she didn’t care about you or your well being she would even bother to ask or threaten to tell on you. Trust me, I have a younger sister and growing up I was the same way, not because I wanted to be mean, but simply I do not want some kid hurting my sister or taking advantage of anything. Put yourself in her perspective. I’m sure you would be protective of a younger sibling as well.
But I stress giver space so she can grow and mature. She will come around she just needs to find herself just as much as you.