I saw a therapist yesterday, to try to deal with my “issuesâ€.
I’ve decided to cancel future appointments because I just don’t see a point.
He asked me what my goals were, what I wanted from life, paint the ideal me.
There was nothing at all. No goals, no dreams, no wants, no future, no hope, no me.
Without something to aim for, I don’t see the point of going through this.
I guess in my remaining time I will see if I can find a reason.
But once the two people I can’t hurt are gone, I know I won’t be far behind.
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Actually I lied, I do have a goal. Death. Therapy won’t help me achieve that though.
It will do everything it can to squash this goal…
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I am seeing a therapist as well for my issues as well. I hate when they ask that question because then I have to lie about my true intentions or else I’d be put back in the hospital. I havent made the decision to end therapy like you have but I am considering it. I am still trying to hold out…for what or why is the question. And your guess is as good as mine.
Stay with therapy while you find your reason.
He asked that question three times. I avoided it the first two times, but the third time I just sat there with this blank look. He started offering ideas, which I readily agreed with cause I had none of my own. I’m sure he knows I was just agreeing to get past the question.
Why should I waste his time if I have no clear goal in mind? I just don’t think i’m ready for this yet.
Also, he started getting all religiony near the end of the session. Kind of turned me off to the whole thing. I have nothing against religion, it’s just not for me…
I remember going through the same thing, and the same question… i remember that when i said i have no goals or reasons anymore the therapist kinda… “invited me” to look for one, and in a way just told me to choose whatever stupid thing will get me through the hard times… funny enough, when i came up with something it was stupid (and not really worth it)… and the therapist told me i should choose a more “real” and “grown up” goal… didn’t used bad words or made me feel stupid while saying it, but i realised that the therapy that guy was providing just wasnt for me… i already knew what i “should” do to move on, just couldnt.
I guess a therapist idea is that eventually you’ll find that goal, with their help, but that takes time… you weren’t wasting his time tho, they are there for a reason.
Yeah I had a therapist that got all religious on me. I am not with her anymore. I am not good at getting down on my knees and praying. I tried telling her that but she was adamant and determined to induct that in the therapy. Looking back on it and knowing what I know now, I can say therapy and religion should not go hand in hand.
Check this out. Chuck Norris has 10 rules he lives by but you can cross out 8 and 9 because they’re rubbish; effectively it’s 8 rules. You can’t go wrong:
1. I will develop to the maximum of my potential.
2. I will forget the mistakes of the past, and press on to greater achievements.
3. I will continually work at developing love, happiness, and loyalty to my family.
4. I will look for the good in everyone, and make them feel worthwhile.
5. If I have nothing good to say about a person, I will say nothing.
6. I will always be as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.
7. I will maintain an attitude of open-mindedness.
8. I will maintain respect for those in authority, and demonstrate this respect at all times.
9. I will always remain loyal to my God, my country, my family, and my friends.
10. I will remain highly goal-oriented throughout my life; a positive attitude helps my family, my country and myself.
Just remember: Jesus can walk on water, but Chuck Norris can swim on land.
I can say right now 1, 2 and 7 is my problem. I have surrounded myself with all these damn positive affirmations and I still have problems.
I totally disagree with 8 because I believe that in order to get respect, you have to give it and if someone in authority doesn’t give me respect….well they say you have to watch out for the quiet ones. That’s all I have to say about that. Glad that’s not part of his mantra