It took me awhile to realize that I only ever come on this site when ever I’m down. I wish I could come here just ONCE and say “hey am doing well ” and I though that I was.. I think I’ve been doing good. I mean I haven’t been cutting my self. But am sad all the time. A while back I was sitting in my room cutting my self in the dark. And my mom walked in. So I took the razor and shoved it under my pillow and all she did was. Sat on the bed. Pulled me into her arms and said “just cry baby” so that what I did. She told me that if I took my life it would kill her, and everything she has been doing and working for has been for my brother and myself….
After that conversation I HAVE been trying. Why when ever am down I resort to these thoughts. Is it just because I feel like it’s an easy way out. I just want to sleep for a long time. Or just need a reason to be up🌾
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Your mother is a person many of us wished we had I think. 🙂
I fell like you should talk to your mom more about your feelings, she seems like the kind of person that will go out of her way to help you! Please grab that opportunity , I beg you xd
I do talk to her. But I know it hurts her when I say certain things so it’s hard to be completely honest 😔😊
Not talking to her is going to hurt her more in the long end though :/ Don’t ruin your relation with your mother 🙂 Go now and tell her about how you’re feeling, if she seems sad, comfert her , to the best you can 🙂
what am i doing on this website?
basically once you have depression I believe you always will, it’s part of your make up, so it will go back and forth, at times you will handle it better at times you will not, almost like a addiction? even you are handling it better, you are not free from it, that a fact I have to live with myself, when I’m doing alright and somebody says how you doing, I still want to tell the truth, I’m not 100% but I realize that I’ll never be 100% so instead of crying about it I say I’m doing good or ok, makes no since to me to keep crying about it, I just accept that not being 100% is normal for me, so I’m normal? ok? just do the best you can stay busy think positive and be yourself, there is no magic wand for people like us accept for an lobotomy 🙂
I disagree with rocketman1000, although what he says is true for some, including myself.
But for many, depression is a one off episode, which can be treated never to come back. This is especially true for young people, with no traumatic / abuse history. So yes, please talk openly to your mom, the more open you are the better she can help you. I am a mum of two young adult sons, I know what I would want them to do in your situation.
And I take my own medicine – I share with them some of my struggles, as they are mature enough now, so they can support me.
You feel this way because your pain is so great. When a human cannot cope with the amount of emotional pain they have, they want to die. It is a normal/understandable way to respond; you are normal.
I am glad you got to cry and be held by your mother. You deserve that from a mom. You have a right to empathy. Take care.