hello i just joined this site today, i have been feeling suicidal all year and depresesed for the last five, but it wasn’t til something terrible happened to me, that made me attempt it, not so long ago and when i couldn’t go through with it, i realised that i didn’t really want to die, i just wanted to make everything go away, all the emotionally crap i have been putting up.. i was really ready to give up and started to think, that maybe i do want to die and i’m just scared because i don’t know whats on the otherside.. but then i came across people on a site that told me life would get better and that there is light at the tunnel, so i was told about this website and viola now i’m here, looking for help and support, maybe there is still a chance for me, but if i don’t try to fix my life and if i just give in, then i will never know how it could have turned out.. but i have just been in a world of darkness and despair and i have lost a lot of hope, so i will need a lot of encouragement to help me pull through my depression and and getting rid of my suicidal thoughts… If anybody else feels the same please let me know…