hello . this my first comment on this site. where to begin . well things are not good atm. I’ve no prospects. bad luck with money . no chance in hell getting into college so there goes my dream job of being a web developer . combined with the fact I’ve an awful case of dyspraxia which means I struggle with simple tasks. I’m 24 years old living a nightmare everyday. I struggle everyday afraid of what this year will bring. I see death as an answer . I tried to hang my self back in 08 but fucked it up of course I have a plan to die by starvation in june . I will leave for the woods . I will leave my phone and keys behind and become a mystery to the town I live in. I was thinkin of hangin my self in my moms shed but she would find me and send me to a clinic and I wount want her to find me. I would perfer if no one knew . the cold will proberly get me before the plan does . I would describe my self as Po. I can’t afford the o r and I mean that literly. if there anyone else having thoughts I hope you will be better and safe . life is tough but for a few it is dire
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Starvation is very slow and painful. You are looking at about 6 weeks, assuming you are starting at a healthy weight. Careful with hypothermia. I don’t know what the weather is like where you are, but you may just end up frostbitten.
Are you in a situation that may get worse soon or do you think you are just stuck in life?
Thanks your reply frontier. I hear ur advice and I’ll consider it . My situation would be life its self. I’m just not my self anymore and I can’t see my life improving . Sometimes I think feck it I’ll just ride it out see what happens but I don’t know. How u holdin up ?
I’d have to say starvation is not a good way to go. Crazy stuff can happen to you while at it, and if you change your mind the damage you might have done to yourself might be enough for your mom to take you to a clinic anyways. I’d recommed you looking up the movie Hunger (i watched it recently), in that one a few people are forced to starve and even if it is fiction, i don’t think it’s so different to what would happen in real life.
As for being a web developer, you do know that college is not the only way right? i studied an IT career and i can easily say that most of the things i got to learn were not from college.
Thanks for reply . I’ll take ur advice . I guess it would be horrible way to go. I think of hangingin but christ knows . I hear of people who became paralysied and that is awful. I seen that film shockin stuff. I hope ur right . Like I’ve an entrence exam on the 27th and I’ve seen sample questions many are maths questions basic stuff but I’m crap at maths and worse part is I can’t use a calculator not allowed you see. The course starts in september. I know there are maths required for programming and stuff but if I got into college I would do my best. One can dream I guess. I love html and css so much and I feel its the only thing I’m good at. U a programmer ?