The past 8 years of my life I have progressively developed worse and worse depression. This past year has pushed me over the edge to wear I have gotten to the point I can’t deal with the pain anymore. The worst is I lost the love of my life because she didn’t think it was fair for us to never see each other. I waited 6 years to be wit hthis girl and for the past year and a half, I had her. I know this is probably really weak reason to be pushed over the edge, but she was the girl I wanted my life with and now it’s been a little over a month after we broke up and she seems happier while I cry every day. I just can’t go on like this anymore and my family does nothing to help anymore. I know for my age, I shouldn’t think about marriage or a family and that these are the year I should be out partying all the time, but I’m not and I wanted to settle down and have a life with someone I loved and cared about. I’m only 19, and I probably won’t feel the joy of having a wife, having a family, or even know what it’s like to be happy anymore. This pain is something I wouldn’t even wish on my worst enemy because it would most likely kill them in a few hours rather than month. I’m just at a loss and  should be put out of my misery and pain, but seems like it’s just a matter of time. I needed to let someone know before I do something and have something to send people saying why I did it. I just can’t go on like this anymore. This will probably be the first and only post by me. Anyone in the east side of  washington state should pay attention to a suicide on the news over the next few months to a few weeks. Most likely when she graduates and says goodbye to me forever. I will die that day and will have my heart left dedicated to her, but she most likely won’t feel the same about me. Goodbye everyone
Sincerely, TheDepressed
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Hey man.
Your story is not weak, whatsoever.
I can relate to how your feeling bro.
I’m only 21, I suffer depression.
It feels like the worst feeling in the world.
But I promise you, it will get better. You just need to talk to someone. Someone you feel comfortable talking to, and that you trust.
We all have people that love us man, even though we feel so alone.
If you want to talk. I’m here for you bro. My E-mail is: adamandadam7@hotmail.com
Chuck me an inbox, if you want to.
Just please don’t give up. I don’t know you, or anything about you, but I care for you.
Keep going brother.
Adam
If you have returned here and read this, then I hope you can look for help in person somewhere near you. Even the emergency room at the nearest hospital, if it’s real bad. They will keep your information confidential.