i am writing this down more as a note to myself than to all of you but you can still listen.I am not going to kill myself in a few days from now though i may die and that is the intended goal as i do not have the desired will to live,But im probably not going to die as my attempts always fail.
the plan will be to reschedule appointments to friday that way i can get an important event out of the way.Id like to take friday off completely but i dont know if thats possible.anyway after my appointment i will go to the bridge overdose and wait till i lose consciousness and fall off .
why i want to kill myself
I cannot live in a world were my future is uncertain.i dont think im meant for this earth.i dont want to mourn my family and friends when they die.im not certain i can survive this world
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Well taking an overdose and falling off a bridge is a fine test of your survivability. God Speed brave tester of life!
Everyone’s future is uncertain in this world.
Why do people worry about scheduling and missed appointments when they’re planning a suicide? Lol. It won’t really matter once you’re gone.
Depending on what bridge you’re on, sitting there trying to overdose will take too long and someone will probably try to stop you.