and soon. Sure, who the hell doesnt want an easy way out, but growing tired of all the nay-Sayers who dont think i have the guts to off myself. MORE bad news today. MORE being alone! MORE being screwed-over by family. and yes, at this point i know that no one cares and i certainly ASK that no one cares. Just MORE shit-filled proof in my life stating i am worthless to others and i know damn well, i have long since been worthless to myself, too. i could give a fuck. i found a way to legally purchase a gun in my state. no background check necessary and yet, it is still perfectly legal. (Thank God for some fucking midwest tards/politicians.) I have the cash and can set up the sale as soon as i send my email & make a quick trip to the bank for the cash. I am sure the seller gives two craps who they sell to. Just one more GOOD way to go. Most sellers include it all…ammo, books, box, etc. i will be set. really wanting to drive out of state to the family that has hurt and betrayed me the most, (the live out-of-state) but close by still….i want to pull up in their drive in the middle of the night, off myself in their drive so they get to see my brains blown all over their driveway, at the first rising of the sun as they open the garage door to pull out for another day on the job. you know “working for the man”…….and fucking their family to shit!!
facts remain: i hate myself, my family hates me, i have no TRUE friends, no one can be bothered to listen, although i have contacted FOUR mental health professionals in the last 24-36 hours…they all think i am lying too. but it is ok…the continual & near-constant denial i have thrown in my face, only makes me dig deeper and research more on how to do it correctly. so, i say a hearty THANKS to the nay-Sayers ….thanks for helping me see the light and reach my end goal more quickly and with purpose. LIVE ON!!! Y’all were meant to be here….fortunately, i am NOT!! PEACE & HAPPINESS TO ALL as you live your own purpose and journey. May you find your path soon and feel as enlightened as i do right now.
Xo
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You said you have the cash 🙂
don’t you wonder how it feel to look at the eyes of living thing after you save their life and toke care of !
2 months ago my brother found 2 poor orphan kitten their eyes where closed and they looked hungry ,cold and lost. so he bring thin home with him for me to take care of , I did take care of them like mommy and now my kittens are 2 months strong and healthy playful little ones … when they stare at me with those big black eyes I feel like it’s the pure happiness they mean a lot to me both of them I never imagin how much love and hope those little ones can bring to my live
at least you need to experience the pure happiness
with that money you can
change someone’s life to betteror at least make them feel better
You can adopt cat , kitten, dog , anything els you can be creative
Please try it .. try to take care of anyone or anything