My dad just came in my room and pretty much told me I’m an asshole. Then he said that I just like to make everybody miserable. I don’t even know why he made a point to say that he loves me, when clearly he’s just miserable he has to be with me.
I used to love my dad but now he just makes me feel so worthless. I’ve had suicidal thoughts for a long time now. But he just keeps pushing me further and further.
The worst part is that he doesn’t even know. He doesn’t know that I feel depressed, or that I want to kill myself, no one does. Him and everyone else just chose not to see it.
How are you supposed to hold on when your own family hates you?
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My mom does that to me all the time… your not alone… the feeling is so shit.. but hold onto something That makes u feel better even though now it feels like nothing does, but trust me, your going to be ok, lie and convince yourself..
Family sucks, they the people that are suppose to be there for you but most of them are not.. but that’s life, it could either make you or break you
Tell them.
If it were that easy I would have
I have kids and let me tell you that sometimes I get so angry I want to scream (and at times, I do). But no matter how angry I am, no matter how miserable they make me, I love them more than life itself. Question: Is there any truth to what he is saying? Are you purposely trying to make people around you miserable? If not, then tell him how you have been feeling, and how his words affect you. Being a teenager is one of the hardest and frustrating experiences I have ever had to go through and I am glad that I never have to be one again. It is so hard to control emotions at that age. I remember thinking how unfair everything was and how stupid my parents were. How their sole purpose for being was to make my life hell. But, now, in hindsight, I realize that I purposely pushed their buttons to get a reaction. Why? I don’t even know why… I didn’t know why then either. And then I would hate myself for being such a *****. Vicious circle if there ever was one.
Thanks for posting. I know I did used to try to get a rise out of my mom. But I moved out and haven’t seen her in a couple of months. So lately I don’t try to get a rise out of anyone or make them miserable. Really that’s what I told my dad and he told me that him and his new wife think I do.
My dad has gone through a lot in his life(not justifying his actions) but he doesn’t respond to things well and doesn’t like to really talk about things so I’m not really interested in talking to him…
I can relate to you @justmehere… I’m in my 20’s and my mom still treats me sometimes like I’m 12. No use talking to her, when I tried to tell her about my depression she told me ‘to power through’ and be more positive instead of making the people around me miserable.
Use something as your motivation to live. What I do is I imagine myself in a few years as a successful woman and that drives me everyday..
It’s going to be okay