I was just going to post a picture on Instagram with the caption being “this has been a crappy day.” Then, I realized I just sounded like an attention whore wanting someone to ask why and understand.
My parents are mad at me. I have a 95% in math. Apparently that’s bad, so they are going to hold a parent-teacher conference. In English i have an 88%. I don’t even know why. My essay was read by teacher as an example paper to the class. I got 7 out 10 right in a pop quiz so it bought down my grade by TEN PERCENT! And on the grading system thing it just says that it should be bought down by 5%. I hate my English teacher. She’s old, cranky, and should be fired for she said “IF YOU RIP OUT THAT PIECE OF PAPER, I WILL RIP YOUR ARM OFF!” I wish it was a joke. My friends are going to report her, but I doubt that it will help much. It just sounds like I’m complaining, but I can’t stop. These matters are just so trival, but yet they are what break me the most. I hate my parents being disappointed in me.
My crush is so funny. He always makes jokes, and even though he irritates the hell out of me sometimes, he makes me smile the most. I started walking from class to class with him. It’s too bad that he only liked blondes in the past :(. But whatever I cannot be to greedy. I can live with just being his friend…
(Not proofread, and not correct grammar)
xoxo,
It’s Only Me
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i don’t mean to come off like I am trying to make excuses for your parents. They are pressuring the hell out of you to excel in school – no question but the shitty part is that a lot of parents try and live out their dreams at the expense of their children or try and make up for mistakes they made by pushing you to do more than you need to. Common or not, it still sucks.
Just try and think about what would make YOU happy and forget about their expectations for a little while. I have a brother that helped develop the heat shield tiles for the space shuttle and he only carried a 2.0 in high school. I think you are doing great so give yourself some credit – it’s hard work and you deserve to be recognized for it.
Hard as it seems you can tell your parents that too. Tell them how hard you work for the grades you get and that you might no ever meet their expectations but that your conscience is clear. If you can’t talk to them about it then when they jump on you just say simply that you are doing your best and if you can do better you’ll do it for you, not anyone else.
Sorry if I sound like I am trying to get you to be confrontational – I’m not. I am just tired of seeing good people doing the best they can get run down by other insensitive people – you deserve better from them.
Like I said, I think you are doing great. I know how depressing unfounded challenges can be but we will always have them in our lives in one form or another. Draw strength from within and be good to yourself. It’s important.
-peace