no home, no friends, anymore. they think i dont care. no love, no hope, no qualifications, no school (depression sorted that out). i need somewhere to go where i can be myself and not be reminded i have a disgusting family that want to ruin my reputation and shit all over my fathers memory. now i feel like i have to push mum away because shes not doing it right. every single aspect of my life seems messed up. ive had it all my life “your life is like a soap”. yeah, well im never gunna forget my friend telling me that, in second year. the only thing i thought was safe was my love, now it seems he doesnt want to be around someone that cant handle daily life. i try, i really fucking try. right now the only thing that stopping me is him, and my little sisters, they need me, even if they think i dont care. and thats what kills me the most every day, that they dont know how much i care, they just see the mask… the ‘nothing phases me’ mask.
what do i do
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Sorry to hear of your troubles. What would happen if you take off the mask and let them see how much your phased?
Is running away a option?
Driving, if you are old enough…?
You know… i think you have kinda same exp as me..
The mask..
I had it all the time
But my mask is smile mask
The mask smile all the time everywhere even when i dont want to
It turns to be a cursed smile masked
What to do?
Open your mask let they see your face
You are not okay Im struggling Someone help me
Tell it to your beloved one at least now they know what ypu have been through is so hard..
At least you can share it so it wont be too much stressfull..
Me?
I cant remove my mask..
And it hurts so bad and left me depression..
It left so many scars inside but my face still look amazing
Dont be like me
Be free from the mask