First post I’ve read on this website was titled “Depressed Aquarius”, and I can relate to everything in there. I am an Aquarian too, and they say Aquarians are thinkers, no, overthinkers, but I am not quite sure if that is true for everyone, but for me it is. I had two aquarius ex girlfriends and I don’t think they tend to overthink as much as I do. I have never been diagnosed with depression or any mental health, I’ve never even consulted any medical professionals regarding it, but I have an ex girlfriend who was majoring in psychology in college when we were still together and she was the first one who told me that I may be bipolar. Soon my other ex girlfriends were telling me the same thing. Though I dunno if thats true or not but I think it is. My mind is my greatest enemy, it tends to bring me down, hard. It’s hard to focus or concentrate on one thing at a time, my mind is just filled with thoughts, questions and fear. Even trying to type what I feel right now is very difficult because of all these thoughts in my head racing in my mind like a fucking freeway. A good part of these thoughts are suicidal thoughts. Sometimes I imagine myself ending it all in various sick and twisted ways, although i know that’s not gonna happen in reality. What I do know is, I can always try it in non morbid ways.
I’ve been feeling suicidal for a couple of years now, I haven’t yet tried, but that may all soon change later.. I just can’t take the pain and the rush of thoughts in my head that won’t stop. I just wanna say I’m done with this life. Whenever I experience any kind of downfall, it’s for certain that my mind would think back to all the hardships I have faced and endured over my 23 years of existence.
This started because of a girl, a perfect girl, and I had a chance to be with her, but I fucked that up, like every other thing in my life, I fucked it up. Now she hates me, really really hate me.. and that plus other things in my life are taking its toll on my emotionally, i tried reaching out to my friends, my family, but nothing is happening, every day seems longer, every day i start losing interest over anything, everyday them suicidal thoughts may just become a reality. I am so trapped in my mind that the only way out is by manually shutting my brain down. I’m in a very bad place.. Very bad.. and as you can see I can’t even compose sentences that makes much sense. I just can’t think straight.. :(((((((((
I don’t know if I need help, or should I just get over it? =(
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I think you should go see a doctor. Find out what mental issues you may have. Try meds. It might make a huge difference for you. You have nothing to lose really and potentially lots to gain. Good luck with things.
My country isn’t like the US, suicide is still kind of a taboo here.. I don’t even know where I can find any mental health doctors..
A regular doctor should be fine. He can prescribe anti depressants and send you to a specialist if need be.
I can’t even think straight right now… I’m at work and I lead a small group of employees, and I’m neglecting everything that’s happening here.. =((
🙁
For the past week or so, I just cant stop myself from crying.. anywhere.. when I feel like crying i just hold it back as much as I can but eventually tears will fall… im in so much pain and i am so lost…
If you feel like chatting you can email if you want… Its my username at hotmail.
i’m fucking tearing up right now man… 🙁
from one aquarian to another, much love to you. i feel the same way
@ohnyo
We aquarians have a beautiful, creative, inventive, and intelligent mind. But it can also be our greatest downfall. We tend to live inside our heads way too much, to the point of “insanity”? I dunno, but I do appreciate knowing another aquarian feels/thinks the same way as I do.
I’m not a big believer of astrology, but the facts don’t lie, I know myself, and from what I read in astrology, I am an epitome of an Aquarius. So now I’m confused, should I believe in astrology? Should I not? If not, why? I need the truth, nothing more.
Aquarius is a very sensitive sign. They like to pretend that they are very intellectual people without emotions – but with all of the experience I’ve had with Aquarians…they are the most emotional of the bunch. They have a very hard time with emotion – just comprehending emotion is a difficult task, and is overwhelming.
To be honest, the problem here is not your sign, your health or your ex girlfriend.
It is your blueprint.
You are seeing things in a negative light.
Let me ask you something, look around your room right now.
Try and look for things that are blue.
Look for blue.
Look for blue.
Look for blue.
Now count how many things you could find.
…
Now look again.
How many of those things are actually green, or teal…but you named them as blue because that’s what I was asking you to look for?
It’s the same with a negative mindset. If you look for negativity everywhere, it is what you will find.
There is some part of your life that is going well right now, but the cloud of darkness is preventing you to see it.
If you are already at the point of suicide, you must be willing to try anything to lift this state of depression you are in.
You should invest a few hours in listening to a speaker on youtube called Les Brown.
Look for his “shoot for the moon” playlist – you can find it on youtube.
And listen, really listen to it.
I think this will help you a lot.
Here is a link to it;
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zLnbYV2Cn3w&list=PLFAJp9SfJ4jpkiISjZm0bHyCY8etpUcDD
Hi brothers I am also a “Depressed Aquarius”
* Positive points :creative, inventive, and intelligent
* Negative points : Continuous over thinkers + overcautious (Mostly think about non happening bad things)
* Mood Resistance power : About non ,can be down by any little things.
* Puzzled Between : Birth – Life – Death
* Responsibility Check : Running away from or Try to fill them and wash the desk,they found responsibility as Over load to brain .
* If there is AIM :Aquarius will do anything to achieve it , and can be dangerous to enemy’s if Aquarius Set goal in subconscious mind. 100 % as study.
* Brain suggest them in depression : there is nothing left just end your life this is only Way!
* Way out for themselves : Train your Brain to Repair itself and try to do not over think /overcautious, about things which are not in your control,just leave it. that’s solve…this is hard but not difficult if you want to live your life as god gifted Genies.
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**Final Rescue Operation :
1. Never allow your brain to put yourself in meaningless state
2. Stay in touch with friends whose are live their life as HAPPY ONE, avoid negative minded friends .
3.Remember that your brain is your super power and Enemy itself.search Internet you will find this world has got many leaders and Scientists who were born as “Depressed Aquarius”. eg. Sir Abraham Lincoln
4.Set goal to your life otherwise your brain will always try to send you in dark place and finally towards depression and END…
5.Do whatever you like don’t try to put weight of your dislike things on your brain this will sometimes makes you panic..avoid this as quick as possible.
6.Many problems one solution to fix your brain … Meditation …most power full with perfect trainer no way out 100% sure than this way.
All Aquarius came to this planet to prove themselves as god gifted genius but unfortunately many of us waste their power in F***…ng dam things.Mind all of my friends it’s all about Programming of Brain.
God bless you with “Goal”
Have good time…
– Vikrant .(India)