I’ve recently been diagnosed with bad depression and anxiety. I cut myself often and have been suffering from insomnia recently. The only reason I haven’t killed myself yet is because I would be leaving behind the best boyfriend I could ever hope for.
I haven’t been able to discuss these issues with my mother because she doesn’t believe in depression. She thinks people with depression are just weak-minded. She doesn’t even know that I’ve been diagnosed with depression.
She treats me like shit, and gets frustrated when I lock myself away. The suicidal thoughts are getting worse, and I’m getting scared.
What do I do?
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Well if your mom in un-sympatheti to what your going through or simply dosnt understant
then I suggest you dont bother talking to her about it. Some people dont know what real
dpression and anxiety is. Well you were diagnosed with depression…. that means you must
have seen some kind of Psychiatric doctor. Do you have follow up visits with him.
Can you talk to him about your issues? Did that dotor prescribe meds to help you?
First thing I would do is try to stop the cutting. Thats not going to do anything good for you
and the scars can be embarrasing. Try to find a counselor you can talk to or maybe somebody
on this forum that you can talk to one on one by email.
Try to stay optimistic. Just because you have been diagnosed. Doesnt mean that you have to suffer depression for the rest of your life. You can get better.
You should be on meds at this time if things have gotten so bad your contempating suicide and so forth.
talk to your psychologist about that.
I guess, sometimes you just have to remove the toxic people from your life, even if they’re your mother.
As for your boyfriend, well, stick with him. Discuss your issues with him. Love him, be happy with him. I am not telling you to make him the center of your life, no, but if he makes you happy, then be with him.
I also hope that you find some sort of passion – or do you already have one? Whatever the case, I hope that you focus on it, focus on you chasing your dream because that’s what /you/ want. Be a little selfish and do the things that would make you happy.
(As I read my comment I’m starting to think my advice sucks but I hope I got my message across. Best wishes.)
Depression and suicidal feelings are topics which are unfortunately still misunderstood by many people. If you cannot get your mother to understand your situation, you may need to seek help on your own. It sounds like you have a great relationship with your boyfriend and I’m sure he would be happy to help any way he can.
I agree with Overcomer72: self-harm only worsens your problems and if your mother does not wish to be of help to you, then I would simply keep her away from the situation altogether. Best wishes.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)