I just need to vent and would like some advice. I’m just trying to get back on my feet, I had lost everything, was living in shelters and on the street for a while……then someone took me in. Turns out, they were big time pot heads, not that I’m totally against it, but I got sick of worrying about losing the apartment because they spent half of their money on weed. And I was tired of not having food or a bed. So my aunt offered that I stay with her…..my gut told me no, but I thought it’d be the smart thing to do, just until I can move in with my friend, to avoid having to go to another shelter or back on the streets. I cannot stand her. All she does is constantly ***** and rant…..and it’s so draining……my mom was the same way, but I could handle her. This woman takes it to a whole new level. I haven’t done anything wrong. She went on an hour long rant when I forgot to wash a glass, but I didn’t forget, I was just in a hurry and was going to do it when I got home. Little shit like that she blows out of proportion. Always talking shit about how horrible my mom is, about my friend she doesn’t even know, always criticizing and condescending to me…..mostly behind my back……24/7….and she really just looks for things to ***** about…..she told me if I wasn’t back by 10:00 I had to sleep outside that night. I’m 19 years old……I’ve tried being respectful and bite my tongue but I just spend most of my time in my room because I can’t stand her. She’s already threatening to kick me out. I go to orientation Wednesday….I’m doing the best I can…..but she’s saying I don’t have a job and I’m being lazy or whatever…….orientation means you have the job……apparently not in her eyes because she’s psycho. I’ve just had enough. I have nowhere else to go, but being here the depression and anxiety is so bad I don’t even want to get out of bed. She just makes me feel like my presence is this huge burden and she wants me to leave…..yet she got mad when she found out I was trying to move in with my friend…..I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do…..I have nowhere else to go…..my mom got back together with my abuser so I had to get out, my dad cut me off, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. She got into my face over something stupid so I snapped….so then her and my uncle screamed at me and were in my face for the next three hours……I’m just falling apart, can barely function, tired of living with crazy people, and don’t need this which only makes me feel worse. I’m trying to get better, and not go back to suicidal thinking.
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I say you leave you made it this far so try again
i agree, i think the shelter is better than where you are now or with the pot heads but I guess you have to pay rent there… do you have any local youth hostels?
look into that-
Good luck, get out as soon as you can though
She went psycho on me and kicked me out over the most ludicrous thing…..now I’m not sure where to go…..trying to find a shelter.
shit, I’m sorry- you didn’t have time to make any real plans either. You know… Fuck her, it was a messed up place to live anyways. Focus on keeping that job you just got and try and make friends with the people there maybe one of them will come through…
talk to the people at the shelter and find out what resources are available to you- sometimes its just a matter of asking for them. you deserve good things in your life, don’t be too timid or the good things will pass you by-