I hope this doesn’t happen to anyone here (unless you’re an abusive troll of course). I was banned from two chatrooms and this forum. I was manic and somewhat obnoxious at the time, however others misbehaved too and deliberately stirred shit for me with a loved one. I’m sure they’re still happily included in the respective groupings.
Don’t get me wrong I’m not bitter about it. I would just like to highlight for people the fact that many people with mental illnesses use these forums. Being banned or outcasted from a suicide forum could have quite a damaging effect on that person. Human beings yearn to belong. I regarded these people as friends (my bad I guess). We suicidal types are vulnerable, and not always sane.
Anyone I hurt or annoyed while manic I humbly apologise. I DO take responsibility for what I did/said. I simply crave a little understanding. Obviously SP let me come back and I was grateful for that. This is not my way of trying to get unbanned. I just want to raise a little awareness. Sometimes people are simply not in their right minds. Sometimes they need a second chance or to be given the benefit of the doubt.
But a shout out to the peeps I used to chat to, hope you are all well. I’m fine right now, I found another congenial chatroom, most of the time I am not big on chatting anyway but sometimes it’s a good distraction.
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I wouldn’t feel too badly about getting banned from sites online.
I’ve been banned from numerous sites, and I’m currently partially banned from this site. (I can leave comments on other people’s posts but I can’t create my own).
I violated this site’s rules, so I don’t fault admin for enforcing the rules. Admin consists of human beings who use their judgment to determine what’s acceptable and what’s not. Their site, their rules. Apparently p0rnographic images are forbidden, even if your post is labeled “fun & interesting”. Who could’ve known?
Louis, I know you want to come back, but it simply isn’t an option. I would go into a more detailed explanation, but you know why it isn’t an option. I will make certain that you are banned on site, for your own safety and the safety of your loved ones.
I’ve been banned from a couple sites but that’s because I was asking for it. I’ve since come to the conclusion that it’s not fair to take one’s fluctuating mood swings out on innocents online. It just makes you look like an asshole, and if you really wanted to feel sorry for yourself and say “see, I must be a piece of shit, everyone hates me,” then you’re just reinforcing your own negative perspective, and thus not escaping your downward spiral. So, I try to be amiable and as diplomatic as possible unless I need to make a stance of some sort.
I have to say though that the only people online who can actually upset me are the ones I have close personal relationships with, so if someone who I didn’t know well disagreed with my opinions and started attacking me I would easily shake it off. I realize that not everyone is able to just walk away like that. (Hence why a lot of wars start on chatsites and forums and so on.)
That’s the first time I’ve ever heard a woman say that “she was asking for it”.
When one is being unnecessarily antagonistic with other members of the site for one’s own entertainment, yeah, that’s ‘asking for’ a ban. (I’ve since reformed.)
Yep. Definitely sounds like you were asking for it, gorgeous. 🙂
Is opacity and slava the same person? Do you know who I’m referring to?
Nope. I’ve only been to The Warm Room once and I identified myself while I was there.
I agree with this. You can’t really control how you act sometimes. My manics are nothing that will get me banned, but I have been banned previously for how I act during my panic attacks. I didn’t really know what the “psychotic episodes”, as I called them, were until like two days ago. I’d lash out at people and just act really really erratically because everyone was out to get me at the time, i don’t even know.
Hi, only just checked back to see the comments. Fine anthrophobia, as I said this post isn’t me trying to get unbanned, and yes, I do understand. I appreciate you responding, at least it clears something up in my mind. Luckily for me my loved one hasn’t banned me from his life and that is admittedly WAY more important than any of this. So thanks for the comment.
Thank you opacity, morris and dead for your input. Incidentally ‘louise’ is also ‘seppuku’. I had two accounts, one of them wouldn’t let me in this morning so I am in the other. Opacity I think you slightly miss the point if I might say so. The whole point about mental illness is that one can totally lose insight into one’s own behaviour. To us it’s perfectly fine! Yes, I DO take responsibility, but this post is also a plea for a little bit of understanding to people when they are in their various ‘altered states’.
If I hadn’t managed to feel accepted and included on another suicide chatroom I probably wouldn’t have even had the courage to write this. It actually is a healing process, because believe it or not, you can feel very hurt or damaged by the experience of being excluded from a place where you once felt you belonged. Even if it’s a ‘mere’ online chatroom.
Thanks dead for your understanding.
In life the dominant portion of society hold sway, I’m afraid. You have to look at it in this way; it was responsible of them to ban you. In the end everyone on the internet, people roaming around wherever, everyone on the planet is going to die. They aren’t going to remember anything and in time no one is going to remember them. Our lives have equal value. Never feel shame or regret because of society’s standard. We live in a world that feeds on misery. Be thoughtful, consider all aspects of life and eventually you’ll come to the conclusion who gives a fuck.