I feel rejected. The other night I got into a huge fight with my parents, they were screaming about how they have known I “have problems” for 3 years now and then kicked me out (I don’t have a car) so they told me to go walk, I walked to the streets for two hours and alone and crying, because I felt like they didn’t love me. And it sucks becuase I didn’t have any one else to tell who I felt would give a shit. But there’s one person whom is so extremely nice and caring but, I hate burdening them with my problems all the time. So I was kinda stuck. And I also kind of love her and don’t know how to tell her that I want to be with er and I’m afraid if I do she won’t feel the same way and I’ll just be more sad than I was before.It’s super hard to love someone, when you’re not sure if they love you back.. I just want to tell every one whatI’m feeling, like tell my parents how I hate the way the treat me and hurt me and yell at me for not being happy when, how am I suppost too be? I want to be happy, but it’s so hard, when you feel like there’s no point in you being here and that you can’t satisfy anyone, not even yourself. I know you’re suppost to live for yourself, and strive to make yourself happy, but its hard when there’s no one to be with you along the way. I should be thankfull for what I have and that I have something and some times I feel like an ungreatful ***** and other times, I feel like every one has it better than me. Well that’s about it for now, there’s not really a purpose towards this rant, I just needed to get my feelings out. Thanks for reading.
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There will always be someone that has more than you, just as there will always be someone who has less than you. Your feelings about your situation are totally and completely valid and understandable. I’m glad you took the time to write your feelings out on this blog( i wish i had the nerve to do that……but i didn’t think MY problems were bad enough!) You have just given ME strength to write my story.Thanks 🙂 The girl you’re in love with, why not just take some time to hang out with her. Take one day where you leave your problems outside the door and just be with her, just to be around her. You don’t have to tell her how you feel about her right away, if possible just “hang out”. I know this may sound lame, but have you ever written a long letter to each of your parents? If not, you should…write each one seperatly and then a letter to them as a couple. Get out all you feelings. You might not think you’ll ever give it to them but write it anyway…..and keep it….you’ll know the right time to lay it on them. And remember “Every rant has a purpose…..you’re just not aware of it.” Thanks for sharing your story. I wish you all the best.
Jesse,
you’re all right man, really. i’m being realistic when i say that, but i don’t even have to say it, you already know dude. you said so yourself that you should be thankful for what you have, and that you know you’re not supposed to live selfishly. maybe you’re not feeling good at the moment, maybe you’ve had a bad day or a streak of bad days, but Jesse you’re all right, you’re just getting through the world. no one has really got it better than you, some people just have different outlooks, and depending on your outlook on life and your situation, it decides how you feel about experiencing the world.
i thought it was interesting how you said you can’t satisfy anyone, not even yourself. dude that’s because we’re all made of insatiable taste, we’re never really happy. the only escape from that isn’t in anything we’re told it is in by society – that’s why nothing satisfies, simply because humans are insatiable.
the world’s a pretty terrible place because of that and many other things, but the ultimate root to our downfall is that we don’t think about God on any day of the week other than Sunday(if ever). maybe you’re feelings about God aren’t too great, but He loves you dude. He loves us all, and only a negative outlook could make someone think otherwise, an outlook like that will never let someone be happy.
Jesse please don’t let your feelings decide the things about you. you may feel rejected, but i don’t reject you. i’m writing this just for you Jesse, and i’m trying to help. i’m really interested in helping you or anyone who i can help, because i just want to make things better here. a lot of people have absolutely terrible lives and they never did a thing to get it, it’s all too often the world’s fault for everything. i don’t want that to happen to anyone, but all i truly have to offer is conversation between you and i about God. He is all that can help you, not me. i’ll talk to you about Him if you would like. i’m just trying to help Jesse, so please give me a chance. my email is daniellopez2316@ymail.com
don’t give up and don’t stop loving.
thank you, too, for reading, and thank you for your story.
p.s. you shouldn’t cuss! you wouldn’t like that girl you’re in love with to be around that sort of talk, would you?
i know what youre feeling.
i told my best friend that at one point i had feelings for him.
it felt good to finally let him know. but i’m not going to lie, it sucked so much when he said that he would never have those same feelings for me.
we’re still friends, but i dont know if telling him was the right thing to do.
i just dont know.
if you ever need to talk, feel free to email me.
hollyllama123@yahoo.com