I don’t know anymore.

Why does no one want me? Why do my friends always leave me? Why does no females like me? Am I doomed to live my life completely alone? What am I doing wrong? Is it me? Or are people ignorant assholes? I’m not perfect, no one is. I have flaws such as every other human does, but not so much that no one should like me…what is so wrong with me? It’s been like this my whole twenty years of existence and it just keeps getting worse every day. I don’t want to live a lonely loveless life, I want joy. I want to experience marriage, (hopefully not divorce), my child’s birth, ect. Can’t I experience life without any hindrances. Everything goes wrong in my life, it’s like I’m cursed for bad luck. It’s like everything I do is for nothing and had no meaning no matter how hard I try. I’m always the one who is ignored around people. The world has become so greedy and cruel that they trample on those that only want the simple things in life, the world has become an apathetic ant farm. Production and production, consume and consume..that’s humanity for you. A fucking plague. And we let it get like this, we let the greedy zealots transform it like this, we let them take our souls for the mere sake of endless consumption. Well I refuse to live here any fucking longer, I will not be subject to this shit world any more. If there is an after life, I’ll fucking watch the world eat itself to death in comfort, if not..bye bye cruel world. I’m done for good. There’s no hope anymore. I have no more reason to stay. Nothing will help me.