just rambling…

my life is at bay nothing bad but the ache in my heart. i really miss him but he seems over me. i fucking knew one of us was gonna get too attached and it was me. dammit i just want to forget about him. go back the few weeks i fell for him and change how things happened. my only 2 friends are being supportive and keeping me busy. my mind always wonders to him. everyday i think about him and i go to walk up to him but i see that hes with hes friends and today he was with a girl so i just turned around and went in the bathroom to calm down. i told myself i wouldnt cry but im crying now thinking of him. Why does he seem so OKAY?!? ive been so miserable and no one fucking sees it!! my frieds always see me laughing and smiling but as soon as i get home i let it out.