Irony right? I’m in this one. I’ve been here for the past 4 years, but naturally people won’t even notice me (different account i’m using now so you can’t find me). It’s like that even with real life support groups or other online ones I’ve been to. People just don’t care. I’ve been in one for 1 1/2 years and the other for 3 years. And whilst I’ve made many friends, they’ve stopped caring about me. They don’t even notice me anymore. When we’re alone, they either make an excuse and leave or just sit there awkwardly with headphones and work/read. I try to talk with them, but they just aren’t interested. I used to think of these places as my home and my family, but now they don’t even seem interested in me at all. It wasn’t always like this. I don’t have this issue at uni or with family, so I don’t think its something to do with my personality. I’m beginning to have a lot of hatred for Support Groups in general. I’m pretty actively suicidal right now too, so I don’t want to have to leave these places, but they’re making me feel like shit and I need help and have nowhere else to go. I don’t really know what to do.
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I believe that everything happens for a reason, if the old familiar places and people seem to have nothing for you, then perhaps somewhere new is meant to be explored. Be alert and open to new places, it’s probably time for you to meet new people that are more suited to you in this current moment.
One rule which goes for pretty much everyone (and it sucks) whether you care about yourself, or you hate yourself, when around other people that feeling is mutual.. Love yourself to be loved, hate yourself to be hated. People can’t really help it because spiritually all those things you feel and think about yourself are picked up by people on a subconscious level. Which is why the most important opinion of yourself is your own.
When it comes to depression, there are times when people get trapped in their own pain, and it’s not that they don’t care, it’s just they are so overwhelmed they can’t focus on others or other things.
With that said, there are people who will push you away and not be interested. Again, that’s not your fault, some people are just cruel.
I feel support groups are helpful in times of need, unfortunately, just like outside of support groups, you won’t be able to connect with everyone. That’s okay, it’s not you, everyone is different.