Hello everyone!!! I am really depressed. I have been thinking about killing myself for about a week now. Really it’s been going on for months, but lately I can’t help but think (why am I still here). Loft a week I wake up in deep emotional pain and physical pain and think “Why?!” Why am I trying to hold onto another horrible day.
I’m divorced, sad, lonley, and depressed. I don’t like it here anymore and I don’t see the point of living. I don’t have any family and so it really wouldn’t matter. Plus now that I’m divorced and alone, I’m not sure if I can even make my own family. Everyone has problems, but it seems like everyone has more than me in some way. I’m tired and I just don’t see the silver lining anywhere.
My he last guy I dated used me. He said all these nice and sweet crap to me, but he didn’t mean any of it. He befriended me during the end of my divorce and to make this short; he lied to get what he wanted. I though he was my soulmate. My ex husband was cheating on me and lying about it. Even with the lies he never tried to make it work. I tried but he didn’t. Then at the end of my divorce I met this guy who seemed genuine, but it was all a lie too.
im hurt and tired of trying to live in a world like this. I’m so sad he did that to me. I can’t express in words the pain he caused me and now everything in my life is screwed up in one way or another.
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These are going to be painful to hear, but it’s what’s needed to grow.
Your husband was probably a cheat before you got married and it seems, you keep on running into and finding other guys just like him!
You were also too quick on the rebound to fill a void. Get support from family and friends and heal first.
Keep talking, it helps. There are so many here that listen, even if they don’t comment.
I think of it as I am here to read your legacy. And I hold it in my heart and remember the people here. Even if I don’t comment. I read.
What I meant to say prior is that I feel I bear testimony to your post. If that makes any sense.
The way people have treated you is not a reflection of the person you are. Your pain in valid. It is exhausting to go on in a world that doesn’t seem to give a damn. You are a good person though. It is hopeless if all the decent people kill themselves. We have to carry on or there will be no good people left in the world. You are on Team Good. We need you to fight against Team Bad.