I’ve become a different person to who I was when I first came here and that’s a good thing. I still crave emotion and pain and fear as a a substitute for the other emotions missing from my life, but I no longer contemplate killing myself. I don’t know how, I haven’t received therapy, I haven’t changed much around me, but I’ve grown because I stuck it out and even now things aren’t perfect but I’ve been able to help and understand so many other people because I didn’t let myself die.
please take the time to reconsider, things do change for the better or worse, you never know if you don’t wait to find out. Nothing changes if you don’t allow it. Having the motivation to do so when you feel so awful is truly difficult and it takes so much from you but I promise it’s worth it simply to find out.