I have tried everything to keep myself going I’ve tried to see if life gets better. Let me tell you, it doen’t (at least for me). Lets go through what ive done, they say that opening up to someone will help, I thought I could tell my friend because he was good to me and we trusted eachother before. Wrong I told him and he bullied me for it. Now I have know one. My days are the same wake up with no energy, go to school to only expell the only energy I have, cry and eat for an hour and sleep. Yes because my only friends now are food and a blade. Its bot a fun life all I want is to die and leave this rotten horrible for good.
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I feel you. That’s what makes heartache/emotional pain worse than physical pain. Really, how often does physical pain want to make a person commit suicide compared to emotional pain? There are people out there that do (cancer, etc.) but even with the cancer example people who euthanize themselves from it usually do it because of emotional pain too.
I get the lack of energy too. I go to college and only have 2 classes a day (i have multiple online classes). I wake up at 8 for my 9 oclock class and get home at around 1:30 just to take another nap until 6:30 or something like that. And then at night of course I can’t go to sleep until the early hours of the morning. It doesn’t help that making and keeping friends is nearly impossible when one is depressed. You have to have a seriously dedicated friend to stick with you through something like this.
Sorry to hear that you have it so rough. I think its really sad and uncalled for that your friend bullied you over this. What a loser that person is. I hope things get better for you and that you find peace.