I don’t feel I can take this anymore. I feel so empty, so lost, so alone. No one understands what I am going through. And as time passes by, I convince myself more that I need to be gone, that I can’t be here anymore. I miss my baby, I miss him, I miss school, I miss my old life. I wish I wasn’t such a coward and could attempt my plan now because that’s the only thing on my mind. I feel so depressed, so unlucky, so miserable. I want it to stop, I wanna go to sleep and not wake up.
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Has posting how you feel made it a little better to bear? I find just hashing things out in a long self indulgent post refreshing. Yesterday I typesobbed…I highly recommend it. I am glad you are still posting here. You have been through some really heavy traumatic stuff with little to no support IRL.
Just a little bit. I’m looking for strength to off myself ASAP. I can’t stand this no more.
I’m so sorry you’re still not getting any help at this time except from here. I find your posts touching and so sad. I feel the way you miss your baby, the love you have and would have given him shows what a loving mum you’ll be to your next child, your children. Mourn for your lost child but please hold on in this most difficult time of your life to a glimmer of a better future. Again I’m so sorry it’s happened and you’re having to deal with it on your own. Keep posting here, we are here to listen.