Complete dread

I never thought I’d feel sick to my stomach with anger and dread, not wanting to go in to work. This has been the first full year that I’ve worked through a job, so I’ve never experienced anything like this before. And it’s the same thing I’ve heard my mom complain about why she absolutely loathes working. It’s because there’s always got to be some insufferable ***** there who makes everyone miserable!

So here’s what happened. The boss has been gone over a month now because she’s moving to another state. She’s supposed to be back at some point to tie up loose ends before she’s out for good and it’s on us to run the org. Well, me and my coworker have equal jobs in running the org. The third person, the insufferable *****, was supposed to be an assistant and learning to do what we’re teaching ourselves to do. But it’s like she’s been there to play Office. She’ll watch music videos with her headphones on full blast and take selfies, so if we get any calls they’re missed, because she’s not paying attention to the phone. She hasn’t kept track of people when they come in and leave either, which is something I’ll again have to catch up on and try to estimate dates and times. Having record of how many people you serve is kind of important in a nonprofit.

So anyway, since the boss has been gone, she’s done nothing but ***** about us behind our backs to the boss, while she storms around the office with a pissed off attitude and not speaking to anyone but occasionally to my coworker in private. So Monday my coworker got her to talk and tell him what her fucking deal is. And it’s worse than I could have imagined. She’s been telling the boss that we’re making a horrible mess of the place, leaving spilled food and coffee in the microwave, trashing the bathroom, and that we both stink. Which are all lies!!!! In the first 2-3 weeks the boss has been gone, she was bringing frozen food and soda that she stored in the fridge and heated up in the microwave. Me and my coworker haven’t used either. So if there was any mess, it was her own! Secondly, we don’t stink. Third, she’s pissed at me for making myself coffee and she wants to see me use a different cup for every cup of water I use to fill the coffee maker. It takes 4-5 cups to fill it. The water’s coming from the water cooler. And I’m supposed to waste 5-6 cups to make 1 cup of coffee? Are you fucking kidding me?? Furthermore, I’ve bought ALL that shit! The coffee is mine, the creamer is mine, the splenda is mine, and the disposable cups are mine! I put all that stuff there to be nice and share and have coffee available because no one else buys it! And I’m not wasting my money and throwing away 5-6 styrofoam cups to every single fucking cup of coffee I make. FUCK YOU! Snotty *****! So tomorrow morning, I’m bringing a box and a shopping bag and I’m packing up MY coffee, MY creamer, MY splenda, and MY cups and leaving it under my desk, and I’m going to buy a small coffee maker that can sit on my desk as soon as I possibly can. Fucking ****!! Ever hear of ‘waste not, want not’? Of course not, fucking snotty ***** that wants everyone to walk on eggshells and do stupid little appeasing rituals for her! No, fuck her! **** *****!

Oh, and I was tempted to go to the dollar store today and get any or all of the following: stick-ups, renuzits, and pine tree car air freshners. I had half a mind to stick a stick-up right at face level on the wall next to where her desk is, along with a renuzit on her desk, and maybe hang a pine tree off the wall next to her too for good measure. What fucking nerve to say we stink! I go extra out of my way to be clean and most people know me to be quite clean and anal about how things smell! As for my lunches, I’ve had almost nothing but instant oatmeal and fruit that I bring every day, which I use disposable bowls for that again, I paid for!

I’m beyond furious! And this shit starting liar would most likely be favored by the boss, so me and my coworker are both on edge worried about our jobs there. The difference is my coworker has a degree and can go work somewhere else. No one would ever give me a job in the real world, being fat and disabled and coming from nothing. So when you can’t do anything, you throw everyone else under the bus with lies and bullshit?!?! Yeah, I need this job to survive, but I absolutely dread having to be around her!