Hello. Lately I’ve been feeling low, but usually I’m worried about something. I have anxiety about a lot of things. What people think about me, my loneliness, my future, and of course the suicidal thoughts. I said in an earlier post that my grades were slipping, but usually I’m an A student. It hasn’t gotten that bad, but it isn’t getting any better. Pretty soon I’m going to have to send college apps and I don’t know how to explain that my depression, which no one knows about, has been ruining my chances into getting into my preferred college. Usually I have tiny panic attacks about getting into my first choice, but lately I’ve kind of stopped caring. A lot of things have been happening and my enthusiasm has just diminished. I just stopped trying in class and just sit there. It doesn’t help that the AP exams are coming up and I am scheduled for like 5 of those and the SAT that exact weekend of the tests. I just have a lot of stuff going on and none of the energy for it. Well that’s my post for the day. Thanks for listening.
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This was me a few years ago but won’t go into detail as a number of things happened and I’m still trying to patch my life up. I would suggest telling someone you know how you’re feeling, maybe gain access to a school/ college counsellor
Problem is I can’t tell anyone. I can’t afford to go back to therapy or anything. I’m just going to have to grit my teeth and force myself to do the work.
From my experience it’s best to find someone you know that you can talk to. But if its really not an option SP is a good place to come. Meditation might help also, just google it and you’ll get a bunch of techniques. There are free apps as well