So here goes….I’ve never done anything like this and was just looking around online and typed in ” I hate me fucking life” and found this site. So my story goes as such, I moved to the north east about 4 years ago for a job and my life has gone to shit ever since. My way of coping with things is to workout or to drink, on this unfortunate night I chose to drink, but long story short I got into an accident. Thank God nobody got hurt expect me, but anyway I picked up a DUI, finished all the classes and everything except paying all the fines. My wife and I had been together for 14yrs and the past 5 or 6 yrs have been shit. So we agreed to go our separate ways, only for me to find out later after she filed for spousal support that she had a side piece. We have been separated for 5 months now and our divorce isn’t even final but she is engaged. Apart from that I dove into a other relationship that I wasn’t ready for , but I just didn’t want to be alone. My girlfriend is great, but she is a very tough new yorker and very blunt and at this moment in my life I can’t deal with that shit. So my wife takes 1k a month out of my checks, so I’m left with crumbs, I live with my girlfriend and we have had a few arguments where I just left and ended up homeless, but then later worked shit out so I’m back and forth which I hate cause she pressured me to give up my apartment here to live with her, which seemed like a good idea but now I’m out on a limb and it sucks. Xmas put me way behind in my financial situation on top of what my ex wife already gets, and now the courts are coming after me cause of my fines. I fucking hate snow, and I’m stuck here in the North Eastern region with no family or friends. Sure I know people but they are just associates. I feel like I just keep getting shitted on more and more and am ready to say fuck it. I don’t have shit and feel alone all the time. I have a good job and am used to having my own things, but now I’m just a loser that doesn’t have anything that apparently nobody seems to understand. I don’t know….Sorry for the rant and bouncing all over the place. I Just hate my fucking life.
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I’m really sorry. That all sounds pretty bad. Try to think positively. That’s not always easy but it is possible. There are plenty of people out there for you to become friends with, which I think could really help you. Idk if that was much help, but if I can I’d be more than happy to.
Thanks. I appreciate it.
I know it sucks having everything taken away from you. Right now you need to start thinking like a monk who has taken a vow of poverty. Do good with the little you have and pray like hell your ex gets married. Make peace with your current GF. Remember you are out of that cursed marriage – you paid for it a thousand different ways – but it is over!
Yes, the world looks exceptionally gray and shitty when you are facing an army of troubles. This will pass. One at a time you will deal with each issue. Don’t think life is passing you by. You are just having a season of hell in the life-lessons department. Once you get past this you will be much better at seeing the shit coming.
Yes, it is trite to say, but nonetheless it is true: You will find yourself in a place where all this shit was worth it. I crashed two companies, lost a wonderful GF, and had every share of stock I owned stripped from me in the 2001 dotcom crash. A year later I got a five year old child handed to me and that made every fucking suicidal thought, every tear, every wave of hopelessness worth it. In fact, if I hadn’t lost everything I wouldn’t have had the patience and humility to raise my son properly. And hopefully because of all that, when my son fucks everything up he won’t do it quite as badly as I did. Progress!
Thanks for listening Man….It means more than you know. The
This time of year generally sucks for us North-Easterners anyway. Fucking too cold, people all tucked away inside so you don’t get to talk to anyone, and this latest round of snow doesn’t help. It’s a very lonely time, and everything seems magnified and too hard to handle. You’ll find your way though; hang in there my friend. This is a safe place to rant.
Thanks… I’m glad I found this place.