Kill me

Hello, I can’t + won’t kill you, BECAUSE I KNOW that those who are the most unlucky, and deal with the most difficult people, BECOME THE MOST SUCCESSFUL & PERSONABLE (kind +easy to get along with) PEOPLE I KNOW.
Working harder to accomplish things, gives you greater determination + motivation, than those who have things easily handed to them.
And speaking from my own childhood experience, (I’m old now, and have a verbally abusive, unhappily still alive Mother who is almost 80)…
Having a difficult, or mean parent, enables you to better tolerate or handle people like that for the rest of your life (like a really bad boss or some other nasty person in a position of power)-
It also develops you into a much more caring person, soft-spoken person, and better parent –
My life and especially when raising my kids, my motto is,
“I will be exactly the opposite of my Mother”.
Not a perfect idea/plan (E.g. My kids grew up to be very spoiled/selfish and self-centered),
but my intentions are always good- Reminding myself every day, decent people do NOT act anything like my Mother.
SO, Since I can’t kill you, I will do something else, and suggest you take a break from her, and other stressors in your life,
however you can- Spend the weekend with a friend or go somewhere/anywhere really fun for the day, or do something you really like to do.
I know you likely don’t want to, but force yourself to plan something positive and

Let me know how that plan works out for you.
And, a few requirements of my advice/plan of action are:
1. You can NOT talk or think about suicide or death during that time (fun break).
It will wait until after you have a little, peace and/or fun, away from it all.
2. You MUST do something YOU want to do for the break, and ignore suggestions made by your Mother or anybody else. It’s YOUR break, and nobody other than you knows what you prefer or like to do, the most.
What’s peaceful, relaxing and fun for 1 person, may not be for someone else- And this is YOUR break. If your break with is with friends and they want to do something else, tell them that a pushy, loud-mouthed lady (LOL), said you have to do, whatever it is you want, today.

Take care. TTYL
P.S. I know your life sucks right now, and sadly you’re lacking much, but I’m certain all this heartache and stress, will make you into a better, and more successful person and man, for the rest of your life. (And honestly, this is not just inspirational BS, my life really sucks now too, and I wouldn’t have made it this far had I not had so many obstacles and bad things happen to me, when I was younger. Only think I lack these days is physical strength to keep battling, and overcoming the horrors of my life, but as for motivation + determination I aced those qualities decades ago. (I’m now 55, and Mother of 2 sons, 1 is still a teenager). Never mind, you don’t need to hear about my pathetic life right now,
Just go out, or hide somewhere and ENJOY YOUR day.