5

I keep missing you because im so lonely. Even tho my family and friends try to make me feel happy, im still lonely. Its because its not you and i fall in love deeply in you. I can only holding the doll you give me and your jacket to make me feel calm. Denying the reality, closing my eyes, imagining you still here with me. Its kinda crazy to hear but thats what i can do to calm down myself, to stop this headache, to make me feel sleepy, to make me smile a little bit. Its enough for me to feel this way. Ive been trying for 5 years and im still here, nothing change. I started to change when you come but when you left me im here again. Im hurt because of your words and expectation and nonpatience. Still i want to be by your side until you left me alone.

5 days to go. bye.