my mom tells me that its just because of quarantine and that my emotions rise when im tired. shes right about one thing, im tired. i cant sleep until 3-5 am and i feel like roadkill that just recently got run over and is still alive, experienceing organ failure. i have two voices in my head now: the one that makes me count and tap things 5 times and the one that tells me to just grab some ibuprofen and fucking overdose because nobody wants me anymore. i know that the second voice (his name is steven) isnt true because my girlfriend loves me but it feels like shes the only one. this isnt a suicide note just a vent type thing ig. heres the few reasons im still alive:
-my girlfriend
-my two snails
-waiting for the next season of rick and morty
-waiting for my favourite webtoon to finish
-im 99% sure that you cant watch tv in wherever the fuck im going after i die
-i still havent been to japan, canada, or new zealand
yeah thats it uhh idk what else to fucking put here so bye ig
-arlo
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I love that snails are on your list. What kind of snails? I had mystery snails once and they laid eggs that hatched and that was so amazing.
theyre just normal land snails, i bought them at a pet store at the end of 2019 their names are jeremy and norman and i love them with all my heart. (its not a lot of love but theyre the light of my life besides my gf)
Youre amazing, and strong bc one of the reason why you are still alive was bc of snails.?