10 bottles of pills. Either have a seizure, enter an induced coma or die. All seems fine with me. Sounds peaceful. What if I fail again? That was a shit show.
oookay…
are we talking about something You’ve already done?
or are we talking about a future plan?
cause if it’s already done then pleeeease please
Take in a bag ALL the bottles [even if empty] from which You took the pills
& Go To Hospital RIGHT NOW
show them what You took & they’ll act accordingly
please don’t just sit & wait, we can talk about everything else when You get back safe & sound, but i need You to make it through this first
It’s not really a plan. It’s just incase of an emergency if it gets too much for me to handle. I wanna go because I deserve a rest, I’ve done enough for people, I did all the things that really mattered to me. And now there’s nothing left. Hard to keep living if there’s nothing to live for. To me it’s like a triumphant death. I had an expiration date and it’s long overdue. I appreciate you trying help but I came here to vent, not really looking for help.
I can understand venting. I’ve done it myself time to time. Seizures can certainly be less friendly than one might think though. I’ve had small focal seizures for years now. Recently upgraded to the much more violent convulsing ones. Keeps me all toned up and in shape without having to workout now lol
Expiration date ? Our telomeres have such a thing, not we our selves. Tho you believe you’ve done all you wanted, what about the things you don’t know you want YET. Life is full of surprises, not all of the is good. Some of the alre straight shit. But you never know what comes. What do you think of it ?
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oookay…
are we talking about something You’ve already done?
or are we talking about a future plan?
cause if it’s already done then pleeeease please
Take in a bag ALL the bottles [even if empty] from which You took the pills
& Go To Hospital RIGHT NOW
show them what You took & they’ll act accordingly
please don’t just sit & wait, we can talk about everything else when You get back safe & sound, but i need You to make it through this first
if it’s still a plan
then let’s talk
could You tell me why You wish to leave?
It’s not really a plan. It’s just incase of an emergency if it gets too much for me to handle. I wanna go because I deserve a rest, I’ve done enough for people, I did all the things that really mattered to me. And now there’s nothing left. Hard to keep living if there’s nothing to live for. To me it’s like a triumphant death. I had an expiration date and it’s long overdue. I appreciate you trying help but I came here to vent, not really looking for help.
I can understand venting. I’ve done it myself time to time. Seizures can certainly be less friendly than one might think though. I’ve had small focal seizures for years now. Recently upgraded to the much more violent convulsing ones. Keeps me all toned up and in shape without having to workout now lol
Expiration date ? Our telomeres have such a thing, not we our selves. Tho you believe you’ve done all you wanted, what about the things you don’t know you want YET. Life is full of surprises, not all of the is good. Some of the alre straight shit. But you never know what comes. What do you think of it ?