It’s so hard to force yourself to do things to improve your life, when a large part of you doesn’t want to be alive. It’s a constant “what the fuck am I doing this for?” And the only answer you can tell yourself is: “so things might be marginally less shitty at some unspecified point in the future.” Cool. Or I could just curl up in a ball and try to forget the world exists for a few hours. The end result will be be more or less the same.
I have no motivation, no drive to do anything, no energy.
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They say one tends to sleep in excess if suffering from severe depression. Don’t know the physiology gone into that but I suppose the psychological explanation is just what you said, “What do this for?”
What do if there’s really, really no light at the end of the tunnel? What if you can’t unsee the futility of it? As a remedy, I often try to think of myself more as an animal than a person but it’s hard given the constant expectations of others.
Eating a Marijuana gummy is slightly better than curling up in a ball, in my opinion/experience. Just a suggestion.
Interesting. I have no experience of weed, though I’ve often thought about it. Isn’t it generally associated with demotivation?
@thehusk, i feel exactly what you wrote above. it sucks -_-