It’s true I’m worthless. I’m not going anywhere or doing anything. No one wants me or cares about me. No one really understands me. The people around me like me sure, but they wouldn’t be too sad if I went away. I just cant handle the mediocrity anymore. I feel sick to my stomach. I want to puke my guts out and die. I can’t do this. I can’t keep going through the motions, trying to figure why the fuck I’m here. It’s too overwhelming. It’s too much. I want to curl up in a ball and cry, and I do every night. I know you guys can all relate. I know people have it worse, but it doesn’t matter. I just want to stop feeling empty inside. Like I’m nothing. Like I have no substance. Like I’m of no value to the world around me. But it’s been years and I have nothing. I am nothing. I give up.
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tell me about it.. running on empty sucks! today is the first day i feel full again. and the little things in life can boost your energy if you just want it… let ppl boost you up or look at something and make beatiful
Like you said – most of us here can relate. I always feel a void in me… I try to fill with drugs or love. Which has gotten me in the trouble I am in now.
What I really need to do is love myself… But after almost 24 years I don’t see that ever actually happening.
Yep, you’re right, we can all relate. Trying to figure out why you’re here IS overwhelming. But there’s no sense in overwhelming yourself about it, because the answer is simple; there is no reason. Unless you believe in a higher being or something and you move on to some wonderful afterlife in the end to sip on a Pina Colada on a cloud. But, you are not worthless. You have value. The hard part is figuring out what that is. It could be really simple, like helping someone or loving someone. Everyone has the potential to not be worthless, you just have to do your best to be a good human being. I think you are more than capable of doing that.