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I’m getting bad again

by sazzabrah 8/29/2013

written by sazzabrah

It all started on the 25/08/13,

I had just gotten home from drama eisteddfods, which I had been placing in really well and winning majority, my weekend was going great, I also for once had a boy that was interested in me! I know can you believe it me!. When I got home I started talking to that boy and he was having a hard time with his depression and I was helping him. And then it happened. I logged onto Facebook and I see a post in a secret group that I’m in, (my acting class) and it says that Sam Cannon has […]

8/29/2013 2 comments

In The Closet…

by Miss Blythe 8/15/2013

written by Miss Blythe

Literally. I’m laying in my closet, on top of who-knows-what, sandwiched between two blankets above and below me, between my bed and a shelf. I wonder how long it’ll take for my mom to realize I’m here. She thinks I’m going out with my boyfriend tomorrow, but I cancelled on him, so who knows?

I’m here because it’s going to be hard to get up, whenever I choose to do so, so I don’t cut…. it’d take too much effort. I don’t want to live right now. I don’t feel anything…good… it’s like I spontaneously fell out of love in only a few minutes. He ordered […]

8/15/2013 2 comments

Somewhere in my mind…

by Scratcher.Ana.DieAlone 6/17/2013

written by Scratcher.Ana.DieAlone

A few months since Â I haven’t write anything. But right now everything is so fucked up, I’m fucked up. I’ve been cutting again, besides I haven’t been eating and if I do. I just puke. So I’m back in this horrible shit, that’s called life. Somewhere in my mind I believe there’s hope, but is it there really hope? I just want to finish everything. Nothing makes me feel alive, nothing makes me smile. I’m dying inside, and nobody around me notices.

6/17/2013 0 comment

Wish there was a switch

by ShyGuy1986 4/25/2013

written by ShyGuy1986

Right now, the only thing that’s keeping me alive is the fact that any kind of suicide attempt has a potentially devastating chance of failure. Pills, guns, jumping… everything terrifies me. I keep having flashes of how disastrously each kind of attempt could go, and I don’t have the courage to try any of them. I wish I was less scared of pain. I thought pills would work for a while. I thought sleeping pills would put you to sleep and then kill you gently in your sleep! Can you believe how naive I was? Then I read about how they make you puke, and […]

4/25/2013 6 comments

parents’ perspective sucks

by aj21 4/21/2013

written by aj21

i wish i can drink alcohols and get drunk, forget everything for a while.. but i cant really drink it.. i always puke.. wish i can sleep all day and hav beautiful dreams instead thinking of how miserable my life is.. i hate my parents i hate my brother i hate my environment i hate my life i hate everything.. my parents sucks.. they always see things different than wad i see,, and their financial sucks too make it worse.. i always see tht im less than my brother.. its not like im comparing myself to him.. but the fact tht he went to expensive […]

4/21/2013 0 comment

This is nonsense, I can’t see the exit sign

by nonsense 3/29/2013

written by nonsense

Well, I am here now, after I couldn’t figure out where to go finally I found this site, and I hope this is gonna help me.Â
I had severe depression for two and a half-three years. My story started when I turned four or five, my brother started to act weird. First he was hurting me all the time, he was nine at the time, but it was okay, this is no big deal between siblings. I was always the type of kid who is playing alone and trying to stay out of trouble. My brother started to fight with my parents, first it wasn’t […]

3/29/2013 2 comments

Saw more than a dozen pregnant women today; a bit of my self died with that abortion.

by whyohwhysky 3/21/2013

written by whyohwhysky

And the rest may soon too.

Some of you know my story already. Well, I/m getting older every day and as a 22 year old female in this society, youth and beauty are the only value that can be given to a man in a relationship. I spent (wasted) two years of my best years and now my value has declined. I know this sounds harsh, Â but men become more attractive as they age and women–well, in society’s view– become bitchy, controlling, bitter and sexually invisible after a certain age. Biologically, men are wired to be attracted to youth and thus, fecundity.

Anywho, I’ll save my ranting. […]

3/21/2013 6 comments

kinda makes me wanna puke rainbows.

by I.cant.breathe! 2/28/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

spiral, a downward spiral. those two words: my life. I was going to kill my self, jump off a tower SURPRISE! i pass out and wake up to find out I have cancer (however the hell that works) then I find out that…SURPRISE! the cancer is spreading. (although I have to admit sstarving the cancer has worked a lot so thanks to those who suggessted that) I went back to school and duh, stupid me! I seriously thought they’d leave me alone since I had cancer, maybbe they’d show some sympathy instesd of hate….hell no. Surprise! i have so much anger toward the world inside […]

2/28/2013 2 comments

Suicide in a psych ward

by kazukithreat 1/11/2013

written by kazukithreat

I’m currently stuck in hospital, not sure when ill be released but they’ve kept me in here for 3 months before. I can’t wait any longer to do this so I’m just going to do it in here. problem is I’m a wimp with pain so want to do it as painlessly as possible. Not to mention the lack of things I could use to CTB with. my plan is to use the exit bag with valium (diazapam).

My question is, how much diazapam do I need? I don’t want to puke just lose consciousness. I’m going to start hoarding it and think I can […]

1/11/2013 1 comment

Soultion to my problems

by Arianna1997 12/15/2012

written by Arianna1997

Hello my name is Arianna I am 15 years old. I have no reason to live. i hate this I hate all of this. I hate the human beings in this world who make it their job to judge and bully. I hate the models out there that are the pure essence of beauty when they are all bones and skin. I hate the stupid corrupted police system that turns a blind eye to a child being sexually abused because it’ll make their job easier to sit on their lazy asses!
So here I sit in hate with blood dripping from my wrists writing to […]

12/15/2012 4 comments

just my experience

by kendrafornow 12/8/2012

written by kendrafornow

Well this is just going to be my experience that I had a few months ago.

One day, after having the pills set aside for such an occasion for many a months, I came home in a really crappy mood. Being the thinker I am, I went over in my head all the pros and cons for why I should kill myself. Long story short, the pros won over, and I decided I wanted to do it.

I shoved all 22 of the sleeping pills into my mouth and swallowed them as fast as I could so future me wouldn’t have time to change their mind. After […]

12/8/2012 1 comment

Im so fat

by BrooklynBoxx 12/8/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

I sit here eating .. like a pig. Ive already eaten two burriotos, chow mein and now icecream.. and yet im still hungery. I’ve tried to puke up my food but i never have the balls. And i’ve tried to go with out eating but all it does when i finally eat is make me look like a bigger big then i already am. Im 14 and wieght 125pounds and i hate it. Everyone says its fine. That thats a normal weight.. but when u look at the other girls AT SCHOOl at their all 105 and TALLER then you .. you know your fat. […]

12/8/2012 46 comments

A Suicidal Story (This is all true what happend)

by Ethan Decker 11/20/2012

written by Ethan Decker

It was aÂ thursdayÂ morning walking to school. I was in a veryÂ depressedÂ mood. I was hanging around in a corner sitting there trying to figure out were the nextÂ weapon i can get to.Â Â Walking to my first hour hanging around my friend Jared. When i spotted a pencil sharpener (One Of Those Small Personal Ones)Â My friend snatched it for me I thanked him for getting it for me. Next period comes and i hadÂ dismantled the sharpener and was using it on my arm then he was nudging me saying to “knocked it off”.Â Â I stop for the period when i went toÂ thirdÂ period sitting in the back seat with it […]

11/20/2012 2 comments

SO DONE RIGHT NOW

by falling_soup 9/12/2012

written by falling_soup

i want to rip my hair out and scream i want to cry my eyes out too the point were i can not even see.. i want to just die and watch no one care…. i have been coughing so hard i puke my brains out… i feel horrible…. i feel alone and lost and empty i want to die i want to fall asleep and never wake i am so done right now i am sick of all the bull shit in my life i am sick of all the heart breaks and drama i am sick of being alone all the time i […]

9/12/2012 4 comments

feeling sick

by falling_soup 9/6/2012

written by falling_soup

i had the worst time sleeping last night, i woke up every hour I had a headache and i was feeling like i wanted to puke all night i am shaking today i have dry mouth all because of my attempt i made yesterday… i want to rip my hair out and scream i can’t stand it… i want to die but all that happens is we are sick then dying when we try to commit suicide……….

9/6/2012 2 comments

Idk

by Marissa Kresge 6/21/2012

written by Marissa Kresge

Hello, I’m marissa and I’m suicidal, achoolic, drug addict, and anorexic. I’m 14 and I drink and do drugs every night. I make myself puke 3 times a day. I have suicidal thoughts every night.

I live with my mom and her husband(sadly my step dad) I’m verbaly abused by both of them everyday. I was several times physical. I have no control over my life. I’ve tried to runaway but I always get caught. I’ve tried to take my life but always get talked out.

My father wasn’t there at my birth and was really never there for me. He moved to Florida when […]

6/21/2012 2 comments

How?

by oO0nobody0Oo 5/29/2012

written by oO0nobody0Oo

I’m thinking that if I do commit suicide, it would be pills. I’m afraid that I will puke them up though, but there are a lot around me house so if I take a ton of different ones it might work.

5/29/2012 6 comments

I’ve realized…

by rawrimaturtle.. 2/7/2012

written by rawrimaturtle..

Im scared to see what I’ve become to I distract myself. Amakua made me realize this.

I’d tell people my problems on how I’d cut and puke so they could distract me… But really these people didn’t give a shit about my problems…..

I look in the mirror and see the person I let everyone else see. But I don’t see me. Why can’t I see myself??

-Morgan….RawrImaTurtle….!…..

2/7/2012 5 comments

I’m worthless

by sambosliceee17 1/20/2012

written by sambosliceee17

It’s true I’m worthless. I’m not going anywhere or doing anything. No one wants me or cares about me. No one really understands me. The people around me like me sure, but they wouldn’t be too sad if I went away. I just cant handle the mediocrity anymore. I feel sick to my stomach. I want to puke my guts out and die. I can’t do this. I can’t keep going through the motions, trying to figure why the fuck I’m here. It’s too overwhelming. It’s too much. I want to curl up in a ball and cry, and I do every night. I know […]

1/20/2012 3 comments

Slow death

by MaybeGodStillLikesMe 4/25/2009

written by MaybeGodStillLikesMe

Took about 20 iron pills around 11:00pm yesterday from all the crap my parents put me through. I thought I would die in my sleep.Â Until I found out today I will die a slow death when I woke up today and researched it . I’m transitioning from stage one to 2 soon. It would take me about 3 days to die give or take if I’m not in a coma. Well it could take a week that I could die from an overdose. I told my momÂ after I woke up.Â She made me puke up everything several times after drinking loads of water. Though that […]

4/25/2009 4 comments

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