is there such a thing as a safe place? because i want to go there! somewhere the weather is always hot and the water is always cool to the touch, a place where people respect me and strangers who don’t know me love me anyways. i want to be understood, i want the world to see and know how I’m feeling. but no one understands, not even you… we are all different and i believe that no one will ever help me regain peace and happiness and i want it back so bad! i remember wat it was like being happy and laughing. i remember being with my friends and hoping the day wouldn’t end, but that was then, and this is now. now the world is a hopeless, endless pit where i have to strain to keep going. its hard enough living with a bitchy mom and a douche stepfather, the only thing i have left is my baby brother, i keep living for him, i guess he is my safe place in a sort of way. he doesn’t understand me because hes too young, but he loves me, and that’s all Ive ever wanted i guess… why do i feel so hopeless? i tried that god thing and it didn’t work, i tried that Satan thing and that didn’t work either. i tried acting happy but that made it worse… i try but i never succeed. its because i’m a failure, my life is a failure, and all hope is lost for me. the only way to get through this is to end it all, but wat if i make the wrong decision? wat if i kill myself and it ends up being the worst choice i could have ever made? but wat if i do it and it ends up being the best choice? i’m so confused right now! plz plz plz help me…
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Firstly, the world you described; where strangers love each other and everything is just airy fairy – that world doesn’t exist and it will never exist. So best get that out of your head.
Secondly, killing yourself would be abandoning your baby brother who you apparently love so much; so if you’re ok with that, good for you, bro.
Thirdly, it won’t matter whether it’s the best choice or the worst choice, because you will be dead and you won’t be able to judge whether it was good or bad, as you’ll no longer exist. You won’t think, you won’t feel, you won’t be anything.
Hope that sounds as appealing to you as it did before.
I had to put my mom and stepdad in JAIL for abusing MY baby brother… I got out of the house and he did too but I lost him in the fight… You still have SOMETHING to live for. be there for your brother always and forever. If anything, I understand more than you do. Once you lose your brother, he may never come back. Hold on to him for dear life. Literally.
well said
first of all, i disagree with critical! that place you described has been put within us by God! it’s a longing for heaven! we long to be in a perfect place where we understand everyone, and everyone understands us! i get it! i want that place too! you are confused because there’s a fight for your soul going on! Satan wants to destroy you, but God wants to love you! i’m not talking about a god who makes you do certain things, or act a certain way, i’m talking about God, the one who sent his only son Jesus, so that you don’t have to do anything…. i know i’m going on, but this is the message that the world needs to hear! take heart my friend! Jesus loves you, and wants to talk to you! if you have any q’s etc. email me at nic2053574@maricopa.edu!
yeah ik it doesnt exist but i wish it did cuz im tired of being the outcast and i do love my baby brother with all my heart and i will hold on to him with dear life