“I’ve always wanted to know what I’d see in the last moment of my life. So I mustn’t close my eyes when I die.”
“I used to think there was some kind of bird that flew and flew, never touching down until it died. But that bird never actually flew anywhere, because it was dead from the very beginning.”
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Hello windbreak,
Ever hear of self-fulfilling prophecy? Do you want help to enjoy life or are you looking for a way to end it? I’m not sure….but either way….if you are confused about life….it is only because you don’t understand it. And if you don’t understand life….how can you make sense of your own life?
Can you be more specific about when this melancholia took over your life….I know it’s been in the shadows since birth…but why has it come forward now? Has there been a trauma…a loss…a big life change? What is it you are afraid of? Or is that another unknown?
I have dealt with overwhelming traumas all my life…I am chronically, terminally ill…I have already outlasted my date of death by 11 years…but what has caused me the most pain and confusion? Why? No one seemed to be able to answer that. Hence the thing that almost killed me after I had survived everything else was that one friggin’ question….WHY?…a spiritual crisis….and understanding that concept is what has saved a wretch like me…and no I am not a Xtian….but I had to understand that I was a spirit having a human life…not a human trying to have a spiritual life.
What do you think?
Namaste
Amakua