Good evening to all my fellow suiciders and i hope that everything is at your liking. Times may get a little rough and may cause you to fall short of being victorious but don’t let something as small break someone so big. Everyone has a special purpose and meaning in life, we all just have to try and solve the mystery before giving up and calling it what it is. Times may be tough and there are no promises that are promised to you, so don’t wait around thinking that suicide would resolve your issues and cause people to care even more. Instead write down […]
hi to all my fellow suiciders out there. i would like to encourage you to just read what i have to say. recently it was drawn to my attention that there were so many suicidal cases through out america even in iraq where all of our soldiers are fighting.  so in all faithfullness i along with many others have dedicated our time to help or talk to those who are going through these episodes. I am a soldier deploying to Iraq. please email me when you get the change at virgak47@yahoo.com or google virgak47@gmail.com. please take this as a way out of realy […]
well it started yesterday when i had decided to take maybe about 7 left over tylenol and some green pills, i think they were aleeve. then i asked mom to bring me home some asprin and i took about i think 8 of those. today i went on ahead and took about 30 more asprin and later today im taking 30 more asprin. im thinking about taking the whole bottle but ill just wait maybe until i finish writing this. ive finaly decided to just do it instead of talking about it because in reality no one else can feel your pain or what your […]
im feeling a little better now since ive been writing day by day on my suicidal situations. im not totaly 100 percent but depression is never easy to recover from.  sometimes i get so deep in depression that i isolate myself from everyone even my parents. sometimes that personal space is something that i need to try and calm myself before doing bad things. even though im out of a job and having to stay home with my mom, being broke, and facing the possibility of imprisonment, im still trying to look forward instead of harmful things like the knife on the kitchen table or […]
the last time i wrote i was a little to harsh and i apologize for those of you out there who actually read these things. you have to understand that im at a point in my life where i realy dont care about anything anymore. when i write i just feel like there is someone out there listening to me and what i have to say just for the moment. this is honestly the only thing that is keeping me from doing something stupid, but im sure almost everyone has been there. well im 20 years old about to turn 21 in september. i realy […]
when i took a whole bottle of tylenol, i thought for sure that this shitty life was over, but waking up in the hospital was not what i thought would happen. i guess i didnt take anough, but after that experience i actually feel like i did die somehow. it was like i was given a second chance to do something right or to do something different. i know for a fact that i should have died, i shouldnt be writing this. so many times after that i had tried, cutting my risk, taking more pills, shooting myself in the head, or drowning myself. everytime […]