AscahIsBroken

I can’t leave here. This is my home, my solace. You can’t drag me by my hair to that place, that box of lies wrapped in pretty paper. Let me have a cigarette first, let me have three. Let’s create our sexual fantasies together, let’s never let each other go. Can we get drunk and make snow angels until the summer comes? May I sleep in your bed and never wake up? How about we go to the convenience store in paradise? If I go home, I won’t sleep well, darling. Don’t you want me to sleep? Let me stay in your arms so I […]

Taking the bus home on New Year’s Day was a nightmare filled with roller coaster emotions and an uncomfortable drive home next to a drunk man with a bloody nose. The bus driver was nice enough, but I suspected a hangover once she started driving. I can’t exactly lie, I was also experiencing the effects of the night before, but it seemed as though I was walking through a dusty desert with sunglass equipped skeletons on either side of me as I followed the other Advil-popping passengers filing their way through the bus aisle. I found a seat in the back next to a dirty […]

This place drags me down, builds me up and holds me here
Can I know where the exit lies?
Can I open the door and walk away?
To be stuck in a silent resurrection
Of another sentence you all have already said
In a struggle to be different, we all lost ourselves
Cookie cutter attention seekers
In a struggle to be like everyone else, we forgot our similarities
Cookie cutter razor harmers

Fear her injections
Her panic is not a release
It’s an excuse
Simply so she can bleed
Her heroine decays the veins
She has things inside
She must kill, it’s killing time 
When she screams
Let your eyes wander past
She wants you to fear how much you love her
Yet she knows you don’t love her at all
And so she’s afraid of your audacity to care
When she knows that no one cares at all
This duty is fearless to breathe without courage
Burning time, light a match, watch her burn
A witch which you know is innocent among her sin
Cutting time, […]

Confusion is your masterpiece
You find peace in my misery
So what are these walls for exactly?
Maybe to save myself from hypocrisy?
I told you that I was broken
You shattered me with your words spoken
Never will we be forever
Not now, not ever
You coward, you chose walk away for sake of saving face
You bastard, you live your life to give to take
So when I die
This will be you’re choice
If I die
Will you cry tonight?

There’s another reason again
To let you break me
So I don’t have to hurt myself
You’ll do it for me
So can […]

But what if you are the one destroying yourself?

Maybe I should kill myself.

Officially moved in to my friends house. I’m really enjoying it so far 🙂
I think it’s gonna work out.
However I’m at work right now, and my ex-boyfriend/ coworker is driving me up the wall. I don’t want to talk to the cheating bastard, but he keeps wanting to talk to me. I just wish that’s he’d shut up.