Haha Hell

Haha it’s one of those nights again
Haha I can’t be the only one who feels this shit, right?
Posting drunk when I’m honestly sober
But I feel like last years tequila finally went to my head
I’m running through the parking lot screaming
My boss is parked right here
Slashing those tires, and I cut my hand
Suddenly my wrists are bleeding out
Haha I actually love my job, you know?
Haha my blood turns his white truck brown
Eyes wide enough to open the door
My smile returns and no one will know
Twitching on the bus as I wanna die on the road
This loser behind me wants to take me home
I wonder if he’d love me if he saw my arms
Haha like who could love a girl with scars right?
Haha I wonder what my boyfriend would if he saw me tonight?
Oh yea he’d cut himself too.
Yea it’s one of those things that shuts you down
When you’re cutting your throat and it cuts his too
When all the things you wanna do affect more than just you
When you have to face up to the things expected of you
Haha it’s one of those nights again
When every night is the same war in your head
Haha I’m living a nightmare
And they say hell is gonna be fun