I feel like everythingis just on its way out. I had to move in with family because my hours got cut, im on the verge of an ending relationship, because my girlfriend and i are both in debt and i feel like im the only one trying to get out of this hole.
I cant even have an enjoyable conversation with anyone because im just not interested in the simple things that most are. Im a techy, a nerd, a gamer, whatever you want to call it, and theres no one really around here that i can have intilectual conversations with, about the things i […]
This is a sort of rant ramble of things, and also a call of advice.
I’ve never been too good with words. I always manage to say the wrong thing when I’m speaking face to face with someone, and I also get very emotional too even over things that don’t need to be. So in general hard to discuss topics for me are even harder, and I’m sure I’m not the only one on this board.
So now onto the general main topic.
I’m moving to California, I’m just leaving everything behind and moving, there’s no doubt in my mind about it. I have to go for myself. […]
So, I’ve gone through a lot lately, I was enrolled to college out of high school, as are most people these days.
I was promised a job, a house, a roof over my head, and all the things that go a long with moving from one parent to another.
As soon as I made the journey from my Grandparents to my fathers, I knew something wasn’t right though.
The job my father had promised me, it never existed.
Even after not dropping a dime to child support for the last 18 years of my life, he still complained when there was another person under his roof.
The second I couldn’t […]
I’ve been thinking about it for a while now. Years actually. Not just faking death, but just disappearing, to never be found. It’s not really to flee from anything. I’ve done nothing wrong. I just want to start over, new identity, new places. Just vanish overnight and no one will know where I went. I know there is going to be a lot of preparation and planning involved. But I think this is going to be the best means of successfully restarting life.
I’ve contemplated actual suicide and just leaving everything and everyone. But I can’t do it. I’ve never had the strength to end my life. I know some […]
From what I’ve noticed, everyone seems to want help in the world. Everyone I know expects me to take the time to help them out with their daily problems. I have no quarrels doing this. I enjoy helping someone else, it keeps my mind distracted.
But you say to much if you even mention that something is wrong in your life and want help. What’s with this society we’ve built where everyone expects help, but no one wants to help you. I hate it, and that’s why I come here. Not to find help but to be able to talk. I know that there are people […]
Here’s to the days,
When you have to make your coffee extra strong,
Smoke an entire pack of cigarettes,
Burn twice as much weed.
But in the end. I’m still alive.
Still Alive….
You’re never going to actually read this, so I suppose I’ll post it here. I love you, I tried, I’m Sorry, Goodbye.
I’ve tried helping you with your problems, I wouldn’t dare see a pretty face with so much potential just disappear among the lives of the other, unnoticed and unloved. So many people try to be with you, but I know a secret, something you’ve only told me, some people, they think they know everything about you, but really, I’m the only one you told. Two months ago you were a stranger, just another pretty face in school, but then we talked, and we kept talking, that’s […]