bamuel

She said, “I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this.”
“You’re gonna be fine, there’s plenty of time.”
She said with the flick of her wrist.
She said, “Don’t you worry everyone gets pissed.”
“At the end of the line, falling behind, fear is so hard to resist.”
But, there’s no telling what tomorrow brings.

If the sky is the limit, then I’ll build a bridge up to it.
If I make it back, I’d still want more, more.
If the sky is the limit, then I’ll steal the air that’s in it.
I won’t take it back, I’d still want more.
I’d still want […]

Talk won’t work this out
I don’t need to share
I just need to scream
So stop telling me I’m not the man that I should be

You blame me, shame me
You take it all, out on me
So stop telling me I’m not the man you should believe

If dying is your way out
Then count me in I’m coming
Maybe a different spin
Oh-oh oh-oh, oh-oh oh-oh
And I’m so used to being a coward
It’s all I’ve ever been
I quit before I win

Stand tall and fight this out
You can’t call for help
You can’t make a scene
Stop acting out
Like […]

i’ll be honest, i am trying to cope the best i am, but i have no human contact right now, and i was hoping people in the uk, or if anyone has an xbox (as its a free international call) would wanna have a chat? and i mean, about ANYTHING! or anyone in the bristol area or close, who would just wanna have  a drink?

baby don’t lie to me

i can see it in your eyes

the way you wont look at me

theres something youre trying to hide

is there truth in what she said (she said)

were you sleeping in his bed?

so baby don’t lie to me

so obviously!

and baby dont cry on me

i dont wanna see

just look me in the eyes

tell me, have you thrown away our years?

i’m feeling tonight, like i never knew you

(at all)

like i’ve lost my best friend

so what were you thinking (what were you thinking)

so what were you thinking (what were you thinking)

you were ment to be here at noon

but you never turned up

no you never turned up

Again my mind wanders

“should i cut you off? should i cut you off?”

Well this is de ja vu so many times i’m chasing you

i don’t know where you are

where you’ve been

or who you’re with

this feelings got me trapped

and theres nothing i can do

Except miss you!

Except miss you.

Except miss you!

except miss you.

Speaking down the telephone

they said you never came home, you never came home

Again my mind wanders

“with whome did you end up? with whome did you end up?”

Well this is de ja vu so many times i’m chasing you

i don’t know […]

i just realised who i am, why im maybe better off alone. im the guy you flirt with, dance with, have a night of fun with…but i’m not the guy you take home to mum. maybe if i realised this earlier i wouldn’t of got so attatched.

does anyone have any specific films or tv shows or music they watch that go with their feelings, or like how they would like things to be, like at the moment i’m watching frequency, which i like cause it makes me feel, maybe, just maybe, i could change the shit thats happened, and make things better.

i’m always planning for the worst

i signed my will right after birth

i got my eulogy rehersed

Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death

We are so young
our lives have just begun
but already we’re considering
escape from this world

and we’ve waited for so long
for this moment to come
was so anxious to be together
together in death

Won’t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won’t you die
Baby join me in death
Won’t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death

This world is a cruel place
and we’re here only to lose
so before live tears us apart let
death bless me with you

Won’t you die tonight […]

I give blood to prove to myself
That I can matter to somebody else.

Is what makes a man the dirt on his hands?
If so, don’t put you’re faith in the dessert sand,
because the wind is always blowing
There are gallows deep inside my lungs, that’s where I hung ambition

Is it luck that’s knocking right on my back door?
Because I’ve been breaking mirrors since 1986

I walk under ladders, I spill salt on sores
and I open my umbrella even when I am indoors

So give me seven more

I give blood not for the cause but to slowly give up the person I was

Holding my […]

My Irish eyes look out at the Atlantic
I think I drink enough to probably drain it
Then I could walk to Spain through valleys that were once full
And face each day like a ballet with a bull

The storm hangs like an axe over my head
The longer I wait the more it spreads
Like wildfire through the hills of confidence
The sun shines but there’s sirens in my head

Stars remind me that
Light shines from the past

I’m so afraid that I’ll have to face myself
Even though I know that self reflection helps
It’s so easy to judge everyone but yourself
I push […]

My memory,
Hangs like the stain glass of the saints past history.
I bury deep, Saint Anthony.
I hear that he can help me find the things I need.

Alaska winters pray for end of summer days
But the sun won’t go away.
Just like me I’ll bet they really want to change.

I can run as far as London,
But my past has first class seats.

The lighthouse lost it’s beam.
Now all I see,
Is the face of the cliffs between the moonlight waxing.
I fear for my life,
That the current tonight,
Is stronger than the will that I have to survive.

So breathe you’re alive.

I just want to feel alive.
And love myself from the in and the outside.
‘Cause every time that I start to feel whole,
I knock myself on the ground because it’s all that I’ve known

Just like the streets burn a hole through your shoe.
My soul has been worn out too,
I’m 25 and I still don’t fit in
Directionless, like a blind man painting

Mother I’m so sorry, I can’t go on like this.
The lifeboats are leaving with or without me.
What’s the point of falling in love?
If I don’t love myself.
What’s the point of being alive if all I want […]

This island has become
An ocean and my boat’s too small
The waves are crashing in
And I can’t save this sinking ship

I sent out signal flares
But no one out there seems to care
Now the voice inside my head
Is the only thing that I have left

This is the part where I’ll admit
I’m getting what I deserve

And now I’m lost at sea
I’m drowning in what I won’t be
I’m haunted by the sound (Sweet sound of my last breath)

Twenty days at sea
My skin is blistered from the heat
I can beg and I can plead
But what I get is […]

Here I lie
Staring At
Clouds IN Shapes of
dogs and cats
I hear a woman
Start to yell
“Oh dear God, I think he fell”

I’m the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell.
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down.

A priest is rushing
To my side,
Begins to read me
My last rites.
Father you’re too late
My faith is weak
So won’t you save your
half-hearted speech.

I’m the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell.
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down.

A man bends down […]

i’m actually going out for the first time in like 2 months. like a proper night out in birmingham, lol. so i guess thats something good. i wasn’t going to, but thought i’d just get up, so i’ll get ready in a bit, actually made a cd for the car too, who knows, maybe it will make me feel better. but just thought i’d share that something positive had come from this site for me, so hopfully it can for all of you too.

I’ve had a proper rough, well I’d say month but thats just this cycle :/. But it’s 2:30am, I’m bord, and here, awake, i think if i wasn’t on here i’d be sarah michelle gellar shooting zombies on cod, lol. (shes a character for all people not up with the gaming times, haha) so anyone want to just chat about…well. anything?

I was wondering, where is everybody from?

I’m from Bristol, England.