I’m in to much pain mentally I can’t go on. I told my cousin i want to give up he said call him before and it’s not fair for the family to do it. What I’m going through is to much. I don’t see my future is anything good just bad stuff. I’m almost there i don’t want to suffer anymore. My mind is going in circles it won’t slow down . Sorry
I just have to make it to thanksgiving to do the family thing. After that I need to do this. My mental health is gone I’m suffering. My paranoia is more than I can handle. At this point I’m not thinking what’s on the other side waiting I just want out. The day I’m lying underground I’ll be safe and sound. I can see the future and it’s awful for me. I have been in psychosis for 8 years partly from drugs and what happened to me. I have over 1000 mg of zyprexa and I’ll do it at the park not at my grannies. […]
Another day with racing thoughts. My mind never stops. I relive all the bad things in my life. I see all the happy people and envy them. I just wish I could be someone else. I am scared all the time thinking people are trying to kill me. I lost all my friends and can’t make any new ones. It seems like the world hates me. I am not happy with the way I lived my life I have too many regrets I can’t get over . Death feels like it’s the only way out. I have gone to counseling seen psychologists but my paranoia […]
I am tired of life sitting in my room all day. I am to scared to be in public. My mental health is getting worse. I don’t have any friends no girlfriend. I am 32 and on ssi living with my grandparents I feel like a complete failure. I think I am almost ready to go. I had so many chances to get back on track but I always mess up. I can still remember the day that my mental health went bad. I am fed up with my life . I have tried but it’s a losing battle living with paranoia is the worst […]
I never will get better I have kind of made up my mind that this is the only way. I am always paranoid everyone is talking about me everyone is trying to hurt me . I give up my plan is to get drunk so I can do it then slit my wrist at the park . I don’t want to do it at my house . Please forgive me .
It’s over I am tired off life. Everyone wants to kill me . I am battling paranoia I can’t do it no more iam going to the park after I buy a bottle of vodka . It’s over sorry grandma grandpa I love you.
Well not feeling well all I do is sit in my room all day thinking paranoid thoughts. It’s really bad right now. I have suicidal thoughts . I don’t know how to break the cycle. I have been like this for a long time just getting tired of this.
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