The world is fucking corrupted, society became nothing because we did nothing to make it something. People will walk over one an other for pieces of papers, we’re killing one an other, we’re killing our self without even noticing that we’re killing everything around us. in what fucking world am i leaving. if people could just open their eyes and realize that we’re fucking dying and of course as the selfish human being that we are we cannot go down alone we’re taking this world with use. We are the killers and the killed, we built things just to brake them, we take and take […]
BEFORE
When i see you, i die it’s like i forget how to breath should i inhale should i exhale i never know what to do.
when you look at me, oh with those eyes, they’re brown just brown not so exiting but to me, those eyes are my little universe.
when you smile at me, i swear i loose it all, it’s like the world stop, everything else fades away and it’s just us against the world.
when you touche me, fire run trough my veins, i’m being electrocuted .
when you hug me, i feel at home, it’s my safe heaven i never want […]
” I’m sorry i cheated on you and used you” “it’s okay”
” I’m sorry that i verbally abused you” “it’s okay”
” I’m sorry i physically abused you” […]
I’m the kind of person that get really get attach to someone who cares for me. Like if we start talking for a while and becomes a routine it’ll become like a part of me. So eventually, when you decide out of the blue that your going to leave and not say a word it’s going to hurt, of course not knowing what i did or didn’t do that made you run away from me of fucking course that it’s going to hurt. Because the other night it was all laughing smiles and love and now it’s ( i don’t even think i can name […]
I hate when people tell me to be myself the judge me for it. I’m sorry i’m not perfect i’m sorry i have flaws, wtf am i suppose to do or be to be loved.
Do you believe in love?
This is a good question.
I believe in wanting someone so badly that it makes it hard for you to live without even thinking about him or her. I believe in feeling good just by having her or him next to you. I believe in being in love more then i believed in myself and that’s probably what keeps me going.
But then again what is love, do we even know love or is it just the idea of love. Could we even recognize love if it wasn’t from what we’ve heard read saw, if it wasn’t for other’s ways […]
It’s always late at night that i realize how lonely i am, It’s always at those moments when I want to talk to someone and tell them all about my problems and ask for advice that I realize that i’m alone, really alone. I mean i have what you can call “Friends” they’re amazing i love them and whenever i’m with them i’m always having a good time…But i’m not with them all the time and those times i always past them over thinking. About Love Life Sex Alcohol Depression Death-Lot’s of death.
I reach this spot where i can’t hold it in i want to […]
When the sun goes down
and the sky is full of stars
Would you let me in
would you hold me thigh
When its dark inside
and i cant find myself
Would you call my name
and make it feel alright
When i fall back down
would you bring me up
would you kiss me right
and make me feel ALIVE
_Y.T
Il était une fois, une petite fille plaine de vie, contente et souriante. Elle aimait beaucoup la vie mais elle s’aimait encore plus. Cette petite fille grandit, elle n’est plus la même, tout se qu’elle eu jadis aimait elle ne l’aimais plus, elle ne trouver plus la jouissance de la vie, elle n’était plus souriant. Elle ne songeait plus à la vie mais qu’à la MORT!
i was playing basketball today and the ball hit my middle finger, and it hurt so bad but that not the thing, the thing is they keep on playing dodging me on the floor NOBODY moved his finger to ask me if i was okay, am i invisible the big question why does everybody do not gives a fuck about me
I’m running late
The meaning of life is fading away
The thoughts of suicide is overwhelming
I’m dead i just forgot to stop breathing
I’m drowning in my own thoughts
I’m an empty shell, I’ve lost my soul
everything is going away
everything is taking away
I’m loosing it all
I’m starting to fall
Who can be my savior
Oh wait i’m already lost
y.t
All my life it as always been like “Yarah why won’t you be kind” “why are you not respectful” “Yarah why aren’t you doing shit in your life” And its annoying because, i’m always helping everybody, whenever someone need something i’m there, and respect is an important thing to me i will always respect everybody, anyone and yes i’m always doing things from right to left i’m always trying to make things better and fuck just no nobody sees they’re always here to judge but won’t even see the things that i do and now i’m just sooo done, why give when you don’t receive, […]
Life is death, death is life, there’s no life without death. Life is useless, life is worthless, life is not needed, at least not for me, life is a beautiful promess that can’t no be keep, life is a fairytale, life fed us up with bullshit, life makes us work our ass off for what, maybe something but at one point what will happen it will all go away, life tels you that itself is beautiful, but deep inside life is so ugly, life won’t last, all those things you’ve work for won’t last you won’t last and what will happen nothing, you’ll just go […]
So as you can see you already know what i’m about to talk about, yeah i might be young but sex as a different meaning for me the more the half of the other my age younger or older, yes i’m a virgin but it’s really sad seeing sex just becoming what its becoming today as weird as it may seems sex is a gift, i see i as a gift, a gift to your husband and wife and it’s kinda the reason why i want to stay a virgin till marriage (lol if i’m not dead ) but yeah i always tough of sex […]
I always feel like i shouldn’t be like that, that people have it worst then me and that i’m being depressed over stupid thing and ugh like that girl i just read about her past and looking at my life i’m having it the easy way so maybe i should just grown up and stop being a child cause everything is right, right? Maybe i should just forget about my depression cause other have it worst. I remember having a message from this anonymous guys telling me how i’m shit cause all the things that ever happen to me are baby scars and that other […]
Last year i decided to have a suicide date but i couldn’t really decide then i made a list, a list of thing i have and haven;t done and i have a lot of things i haven’t done and that list became like a bucket list for me, the title “Things before my suicide date”. The date i never really had a date all i knew is that i would wait till i’m 18 and that maybe by then things will be great, so i’m really hopping that things get great by then but if it doesn’t i already know what to do, it’s like […]
i always wonder how it was to have friend, how is it to have people that cares for you or that would actually give a shit if tomorrow they woke but you didn’t. how is it really, cause all i know is that I’ve always been alone all me life and never really had any affection from someone other then myself, lol funny cause even myself don’t like myself, so i never loved or felt loved, i always wonder how it felt, like does you really think of the person all the time, do you really do things for the good of that person, does […]
I want a mom, a mom who cares for me a mom who loves me, i just need support from her, caring and loving that’s all i want. Someone who can just sit around tell me how much there proud of me, someone who looks at me like i was worth something, someone who believes and me and that don’t trow me away like a piece of shit over school grades… Mom what did i ever did to you, i’m sorry i was born, i’m so sorry, i know you regrets it, you’ve told me so many times, i see it, i know it, Mom […]
am i the only person here under 18??
I had a few people asking me what i had or if i was okay i always pull the “oh nothing just tired” or “i’m okay” but it’s all lie, lies and more lies i’m not okay, i’m not tired or anything like that i’m not fine at all, i’m sad, i want to die, and i feel worthless, i’m not tired i just cried for 2 hour straight, i’m trying to fight my demons but i’m failing hard really hard, “aren’t you hot under this sweater” i always respond “no i’m fine” haha more lies, no i’m not fine, i’m burning under this […]
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