like a switch went off, weird. life is good. i’m stickin around.
cantstopthinkinboutit
I see my post are pathetic. sorry to  interrupt your life. probably wont post again. need to end this crapy existence , blacks out got to be better than this. got enough cash to buy a gun. to go alone or not thats the question, could take some with me.  sorry god im not well.
I used to get joy from jerry garcia now I see my self dead
wife couldnt last 3 day without alcohol asked her not to but oh well. trying to get my affairs in order but whats the use, family’s fucked with or without me . trying to put the happy face a work thats becoming difficult. Thanks Kemp I heard yiou through the noise in my head for a moment. My daughter is really special , this is gonna hurt her. that hurts too thinking ways now. walmart should make a gun purchase easy. would like to make it look like a natural but need to get out soon. bummed its come to this, i think my kids […]
I’m 46,married but I like guys I have 3 teenage kids, job that does’nt pay the bills, an alcoholic and been chased out of local AA, overweight, no passion, kids do drugs, kids are on probation, dogs and cats have ruined house, car broke, phone broke, tv’s been shut off, computer broke, been writting a suicide letter for weeks. Funeral plans are mostly done. what’s I dont get is why im still here, why I take a shower in the morning. mostly worried my kids will do the same after i’m gone… wtf