caucajun

I wish I could shoot some cocaine before I die at least one more time, yet I don’t think I have that much time left, maybe tonight, tomorrow, or the next day.

I have even been planning to do some, yet cocaine around phoenix is nothing but crap. Last May I was on a mission, and bought an oz. of coke, tried to rock some up, and nothing, so the cocaine wasn’t cocaine, at least there was very little and the rest cut, what a bummer.

So I came up with a plan. Crack Cocaine by its nature has to have cocaine in it to rock up, […]

Anyone here following the Walking Dead, zombies and shit, way cool, hope tpo never return as one of them spooky.

calcium polysulfide

I find myself at a place where my options are few/limited. I have traveled for the last year and I was a few steps ahead of pursuers (not gonna go into that).
So I am resigned to my fate. When the situation pressents itself I hope I have the time to get to my way out. I never wanted to go like that. Yet its all I have to do it instantly, hopefully it wont hurt.

I don’t have the means to end my life. Of course anyone has some cord or rope within reach yet is that the way I want to go ?

No its not, and I haven’t my choosen best method of going which is an overdose of something, whatever it is.

I am shaking right now and can’t stop, my hands and legs are just uncontrollably shaking.

I have’nt decided if I want to go to a psych ward and check in, when what I really want is access to lethal drugs and wish they wwould administer them to end my life.

I’m just rambling, I wish I were already […]

ourpath24@yahoo.com

Things have changed in my journey, I still here and alive, new hope or at least less of a reason to be depressed or fearful in my life.

Anyone hear from SoftSoul lately ???