I don’t have the means to end my life. Of course anyone has some cord or rope within reach yet is that the way I want to go ?
No its not, and I haven’t my choosen best method of going which is an overdose of something, whatever it is.
I am shaking right now and can’t stop, my hands and legs are just uncontrollably shaking.
I have’nt decided if I want to go to a psych ward and check in, when what I really want is access to lethal drugs and wish they wwould administer them to end my life.
I’m just rambling, I wish I were already gone, yet will probably still be languishing here for months to come.
I hate this feeling.
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Why.?
psych ward is ok. People nice. Why you got to go there.?
A life of bad choices, there’s a very real possibility of being homeless. If I go to a hospital here in the US and say I’m suicidal they have to admitt you for X amount of time to evaluate a person. I don’t have the money to pay for the stay so there would be this bill after I got out.
I was just hospitalized back in May till June for a drug relapse/suicidal yet they just kept me on the drug rehab side, not the psych ward.
I don’t know how to answer you, the best answer is that I have been suicidal all my life, brief periods where there was some what happiness, yet never a day that I didn’t think about suicide at least for a brief moment of the day.
Maybe this is just a real flare up and it will pass, it always has in the passed.
I hate the psych ward. I’ve found it only makes people worse, but I think treatment depends on the hospital and I live in Canada so they probably follow different procedures. Either way, you probably should seek some help. Maybe not admit yourself, or go right now. The feeling will pass, probably, but there’s a good chance it’ll flare up again too.
Maybe save up some money. Or find someone to talk to. I don’t know what’s available in your area but if you call up any of the free crisis lines, they can help find services available for you. Just don’t ignore it. Recognize that you need to do something to help yourself.
U.S health care. Suck’s. Ok play it. & find a home.
Too.
Yeah the US health system isn’t the best, yet I have been hospitalized probably 15 to 20 times since 1986 and it did what it was supposed to do, saved my life for another day.
There was only one psych hospital that wasn’t up to par and that was a State hopsital which was more like a prison than a hospital. There were some really dangerous types in there and I was committed so I couldn’t just sign myself out. I ended up there for about 3 and half weeks.
There’s a small segment of psychiatric dr’s and pyschologists starting to question if keeping truely suicidal people from killing themselves is actually doing more harm than good. If they save a life temporarily/postponed for years of more anguish and suffering are they (Dr’s) living up to their creed of Do No Harm.
What sort of bad choices mate?I’ve made a few,but 20 times in hospital seems bad.I dunno how you’ve managed to carry on.Do you recover then relapse all the time bipolar?